Madam ji gari taiyar hai… ,driver ne kaha.
Han…han… main bhi taiyar hoo…. Chalo ,kahati hui main gari ke paas aa gai aur pichhe ka get kholkar andar baith gai.
Aaj mai banaras ja rahi hoon ek saahityik sangoshthi me sammilit hone. Aaj mai ek jani pahachni lekhika ban gai hoon. Sab log mujhe pahachante hain, meri bhi ek pahachan hai. Hamesha se laga tha ki main kabhi jivan safal ho paungi ya nahin. Ek chhote se gaon ki ek mahatvakankshi laraki ke liye yeh aasan nahin tha.
Shahar ki university men parhane ka sapana graduation se dekhane lagi thi lekin graduation gaon ke paas ek college se karana para. MA ke liye form dalane ka mauka mila. Rank achchha tha counseling men gai bhi thi lekin duryog se admition nahin ho paya aur main papa ka paas chali gai B.Ed karane ke liye. B.ed ek saal ke bajaay do saal le liya.
Agle sal fir form dali es bar raink aur bhi achchha aaya es bar bhi admition nhi ho paya. Agale saal fir…., main bhi kitana jiddi kitana besharm kitani behaya thi. Es baar sirf do din baaki the tab darate darate papa se poochha ki form daal doo ? to bole – han…. Pahale apani amma se pooch lo. Es baar mainne functional hindi se MA karne ka socha. Functional hindi yaani prayojanmoolak hindi jisake bare mainne BA men apne hindi teacher se jaankari mili thi. Parichay ke roop men BA men ek hindi men paper bhi huaa tha. Esamen journalism and mass communication ki bhi parhai hoti hai. Ese kaamkaaji hindi bhi kahate hain.
Papa ka man to es baar bhi nahin tha , es liye entrance ke samay kaafi drama huaa. Entrance dene main jiju ke saath gai.
Abki baar nahin laga ke mera entrance nikalega lekin general me14 aur obc men 5 rank aaya. Admission ke samay fir drama huaa, paise nahin hai mere paas admission ke liye apani mamma se bolo vo karava de. Vo kahan se karava dengi naukari karati hain kya? Jab bhi phone karate unase anunay vinay karati ki please admission karva den lekin vo es baar bhi tas se mas nahin ho rahe the.
Canceling ke chaar din pahale subah subah phone aaya ki papa ka accident ho gaya hi is no more. Sab lager one chillane. Sab logon ne socha ki aisa meri vajah se huaa. Maine bhi socha tha fir pata chala are nahin kauaa ne sar men maar diya hai. Hamare yahan kauaa ka sar par baithana ashubh maana jata hai es ashubhata ko mitane ke liye apne najdiki logon ko marane ki khabar di jaati hai. Agar yeh sach hota to??? To main jinda kaise rahati, kitana bada laanchhan lag jaata meri jaat par vah bhi meri ek shahar men parhane ki khvaahish ki vajah se.
to be continue.....
