AATHAVIN FAIL
Main writer banana chahati thi vaise to mainne yahan aane se purv saat kahaaniyan likh li thi. Mujhe likhane ka shauk BA first year se hi lag gaya tha lekin publish nahi karava paai thi vaise publish karavane ka prayas kiya tha lekin parivaar vaalon ko pata nahi kaya problem thi ye kah kar chup karava diye ki bari aai hain writer banane tum jaise bahut aaye aur chale gaye aur akele mere vas ka tha bhi nhin.
Jab meri pahali kahaani published hui to kitani khushi hui thi mujhe. Main dukaan par hi khushi se uchhalane lagi thi apana name patrika men dekh kar. Class ke logon ko yakin nahin huaa tha ki vo main thi. Teacher se lekar student tak jisane bhi parhi sab meri tarif kar rahe the. Usake baad meri baaki kahaaniyan bhi published huin.
Mera lakshya bas etana hi nahin tha, main aage jana chahati thi. Main films ya serials men kaam karana chahati thi as a writer. Main laraki thi vah bhi gaon ki, esliye saath khojati thi ki koi to ho jo meri madad kare. Mainne kai logon se baat bhi ki. Kai jagah audition men apani kahaani bhi dikhaai lekin yeh kah kar reject ho gai ki – tumhari kahaaniyan to thik hain lekin tumhen films ya serial ke liye sikhana parega. Patra patrikaon ke liye to koi bhi likh sakata hai, main likh sakata hoo yeh likh sakata hai vo likh sakata hai lekin films ke liye alag tarika hota hai jo tumhen sikhana parega. Aur ab sikhayega kaun yeh mushkil savaal samane aaya.
Main jahan rahati thi vo ek Bhojpuri actor ke bhai ka ghar tha jinhe ham bhaiya kahate the aur unaki patni ko bhabhi. Apane sapane ke bare men maine bhabhi se bhi baat ki, vo story parhi lekin koi faayada nahin huaa. Us actor se bhi milane ka bhi mauka mila seli aur autograph le li lekin kahate kahate rah gai ki main writer hoo apani story film ke liye dena chahati hoo, lekin kah nahin paai. Ho sakata tha nakaaraatmak bhaav milata aur sakaaraatmak bhaav bhi de sakata tha, lekin ab to bas pachhatava hi rah gaya tha.
Aakashvani jaane ka mauka mila vahan bhi ek sir the jo Bhojpuri filmon men acting bhi karate the, maine unase bhi baat ki lekin vo bole- tum laraki ho abhi tumhari age nahin hui hai kit um kahaani likho, lekin bhagavaan ne agar tumhen yeh talent diya hai to bhi tumhen abhi aur mehanat karani chahiye. Abhi tum sirf paper magazine tak hi socho kyonki abhi tumhara koi bhi exploit kar sakata hai. Tum meri cast ki ho isi liye tumhen samajha raha hoo.
Maine to madad mangi thi, maine socha tha senior hain, guardian ki tarah se un logon se milava sakate hain apane security se apane parichay se, lekin baat yahan bhi nahin bani.
to be continue ....
