Disturbed
(An investigative, romantic and psychological thriller)
By
Kotra Siva Rama Krishna
“I shall be in my care all the time. I promise” I said with a smile.
“No doctor. She does not keep that promise.” Viola is saying and she just came to that place. “That is why I have come here. I have decided to shadow her all that time. It is my responsibility to see that nothing danger happens to her ever. You just be relaxed.”
“Viola, you!” Nickerson turned towards Viola and laughed. “I am having hundred percent confidence on you dear. After your saying so, I really can be relaxed. I know very well what a good friend you are to Dazzle.”
“What you don’t know doctor.” Slumping herself beside me on the sofa Viola is saying. “Why and how I have become a good friend like that to Dazzle. From her childhood itself, Dazzle worried more about me than herself. She helped me a lot….”
“Viola will you please shut your bloody mouth?” I am saying angrily. “There is no necessity that you need to tell all that now. Moreover I did all that only as a good friend to you and you may not remember now but you too helped me on more than one occasion. How I can forget about those?’
“Its alright dears. You helped each other and it is quite common between two good friends. But Viola.” Now he turned towards Viola and is saying this. “I really liked your decision. Please be with Dazzle all the time. As Dazzle’s father himself felt like that, I am really feeling that there is danger quite near to Dazzle.”
“I agree with you and I am also feeling in the same way.” Viola is saying. “And you need not doubt me at all. Nothing happens to Dazzle as long as I am with her.”
“Alright then.” After some more discussion between us three, Nickerson stood up and said. “I must go now. A lot many patients may be in waiting for me in the clinic. I meet you again Dazzle.”
I am looking at the way Nickerson went. “Really a very good doctor.” I said.
“And a very good friend to your dad. On many an occasion I saw this Nickerson and your dad more intimate and discussing many a thing.” Viola said.
“That is what this Nickerson also said. He is also feeling so much of surprise at why my father did not say anything about that thing to him.” I hissed out heavily.
“Really quite puzzling!” Viola nodded her head helplessly.
Then I have expressed to her how I have heard a woman’s weeping yesterday’s night. Frowns gathered on the forehead of Viola.
“Really you did hear weeping sound like that Dazzle?” with surprise and agitation in her eyes she said.
“There is no necessity to me to concoct stories like these.” I irritated.
“Why you are time and again imagining like this I cannot understand.” Viola hissed out.
“I told you many a time that those were not my imaginations but real. Yesterday also it was not my imagination at all. Really I heard that sound.
“Then who is it and why she wept like that?”
“How can I say? I could not even locate the place where from that weeping was coming.” Then I remembered Viola’s and Williams’ sexual act in Viola’s room. I am not intended to broach any of that to Viola. If I mention that Viola feels too much embarrassed.
“I did not hear anything like that on yesterday.”
‘You were not in a position to hear anything then’ I am thinking in myself. Their both coupling bodies on the bed once again came into my view and once again I am feeling thrilled.
“I want to say one thing for clear hear Dazzle even you do get angry on me” looking straight into my eyes Viola is saying. “There is no problem whatsoever to you because of these feelings and these experiences. Don’t worry about them at all.”
“I am not thinking that they are just my feelings and experiences Viola. They are more than that. They are really happening to me.”
“My god, how can I convince you that they are all just your hallucinations?” taking her head into her both hands Viola said. Even I myself in an irritating mood, Viola’s posture like that made me laugh.
“Its good hearing you laugh like that.” With a smile Viola perched her head up and said.
I hissed out heavily and said. “But you said that you do something to keep me away from these types of feelings. Why don’t you start something soon?”
“Sure I do that. But from now onwards I shall shadow you every moment. You did not let me to sleep with you on yesterday’s night. But sure I do sleep with you from today on wards. In such a way I can keep you from being attacked by unnecessary feelings or experiences.”
“Really you do that?” with a mischievous look in my eyes I asked her.
“Why you are thinking like that?” a frown gathered on the forehead of Viola.
“I am afraid that Williams may not agree with it.” I said.
“Why Williams does not agree with it?”
“Because you both are terrible lovers now. I don’t think that he can spare you to anyone else.”
“Who said to you that we both are lovers?”
I breathed deeply and hissed out before start saying. “It happened like that I have to look into your room on yesterday. Oh you both were…..”
“Oh, shut up!” Viola got off from the sofa angrily “You really saw all that?”
“Only some of it not full. But it told me a lot.”
Still Viola appears quite angry. I felt bad first to see it like that and next saying about the same to her so.
“I am really very sorry Ola. I did not mean to see into your room so.”
There is a sudden change in her expression and she smiled. Once again she came near to me and slumped beside me. “Its alright Dazzle. Sooner or later you have to know about that. In fact I myself want to tell you about it.”
“That means you are agreeing that you both are lovers?”
“What else? Even after seeing like that yesterday also you are still asking this question?”
“Knowing you Ola….you don’t bother with love like thing…” remembering what she used to say I am trying to say even more but something is blocking me to continue further.
‘Yes Dazzle what does we preserve by keeping it not touched? What is the problem if we satisfy our desire with someone? What we are going to lose and the other person? What all we need to do is we have to be cautious with necessary equipment.’ This what she used to say often.
I became aghast on hearing that. It is always surprising to me that such type of wild ideas depress me and shock me despite the fact I did like that. I let Nathaniel have me on more than one occasion even before I became a woman. There is no love like thing between Nathaniel and me at any point of time. Chuck’s entrance into my life was also purely to satisfy my urge. In fact I am feeling very happy that I never indulged in any emotional feeling towards Chuck. If I have I would have become quite upset now.
“You are right Dazzle. I did not bother much about love like thing while satisfying my bodily urge. But this time I am feeling some love like thing with Williams. My yesterday’s love making is only because of my love towards him and for the first time I came to know the difference between sex without love and sex with love”
“My god! I am hearing this from great psychologist Viola!” I exclaimed.
“Just because of being a psychologist I am not devoid of feelings Dazzle. I am not banned from behaving like a human being.”
“Alright, go on.” I am smiling now and said.
“There is not much to say. But I am feeling fulfilled something in my love.”
I am smiling now. Anyhow hearing from Viola like this is different to me.
“There is one more common thing between you and me Viola.” Breathing deeply I said to her after a pause.
“Tell me what it is?”
“We both have it from the same person Nathaniel.”
On hearing that Viola’s face turned crimson red. I never have thought that Viola can feel shame to such an extent. Am I did a mistake by mentioning it like that to her?
“You are right. On more than one occasion.” Her voice is also different.
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“No, Nick. Go away from here. If madam finds me here talking with you like this, I shall be removed from my job.”
I am in a mood to go straight to my chair there to sit but stopped observing Nova there. She sat in the same chair in the same position as she sat on that day. She is talking in herself in the same way as she talked on that day. Instead of becoming angrier on her I am feeling lot of pity. It appears Nova also is suffering from some psychological disorder just like I am suffering now. Because of Viola’s repeated saying I have come to an opinion that I am suffering from a psychological disorder.
“May be you are right Nick. May be madam is in danger. But it is not better that you do stay here and talk with me like this. Why don’t you try to understand my position?”
‘May be madam is in danger!’ what really that invisible Nick is saying to Nova?
The environment there is appearing quite eerie to me. It is the same room I everyday come and sit. It is the same place I spend most of my time but suddenly I am feeling fearsome. My mind became numb and I am not able to think anything in a proper way.
I am slowly walking towards the chair balancing myself carefully. Why suddenly I became like this I cannot understand. Last time also I have seen Nova talking with her husband like this. But I did not feel in such a way then. What really is making the situation different now? Her listening and saying out that my life is in danger? While I am slumping myself into the chair, Nova perched her head up and looked at me. She is shocked. I am seeing fear so clearly in her face.
“Don’t feel fear Nova. I am not going to say anything to you for your talking like that with your late husband.” Trying to produce a smile I am saying. “I can understand you.”
“Thank you madam.” Her voice is still with fear. “I have told him not to come here madam. But he is not listening to me. I shall see that he would not come anymore here to talk with me.”
“Alright, try your best to make him not to come here. If it is only in your home there is no problem. But in the office it would be quite disturbing.” I am trying to adjust myself not only in my chair but in my mind also.
“I can understand madam. I am really feeling very sorry for the inconvenience caused by me to you.” There is regret in her voice.
“Its alright Nova. Don’t worry too much about that.” I am saying with a changed tone. But my mood is not changed and I am still feeling quite uneasy. “In all other ways I have completely satisfied with you.”
“Thank you very much madam.” Nova’s face brightened up. “In fact you gave me the chance to prove myself.”
She paused for a moment and then said again. “Madam may I remind you about the works you have to go through on this day?”
I leaned back and closed my eyes. My mood is not at all on anything to do then. It is just like Nova’s husband is still in my room.
“Is your husband still in our room, Nova?” I asked her.
“No madam. He left.” Nova said with a puzzling expression.
“How can you say so? I am still feeling his presence in this room.”
“Madam you are mistaken. My husband has left this room.” With firmness in her voice Nova said.
(I hope that you enjoyed upto here. I shall publish the next chapter as soon as possible. Please don’t forget to rate and review.)
