Disturbed
(An investigative, romantic and psychological thriller)
By
Kotra Siva Rama Krishna
My heart beat is increasing and I have got a reeling sensation. My dad wrote this all just before his death!
“But I am feeling this damned heart ache again….I just cannot escape from it….I am not able even to hold the pen with my hand.” Here dad’s writing is just scrawls making it quite difficult to understand. I can understand that he was suffering terrible heartache while he was writing like this.
“Dazzle darling. Pardon me. I cannot write anymore. I cannot concentrate on that. You promised to me to come here as fast as possible. But I am not expecting to live that long. Bye Dazzle….Good bye forever.” Here the writing is very difficult to understand. By this it can be known how much my dad suffered to write that.
Tears are flowing down on my cheeks. My dad suffered hell while writing those few sentences in that diary. I understood even more that dad wanted to tell me a very important thing. What is that? My life is in danger. Surprisingly I am not feeling fear to death and I am feeling terribly sorry for my poor dad as he suffered like that just before his death! The irony is even in whole of that writing dad did not leave even a small clue in it. Dad did not do that purposefully. He wanted to write that in the later on paragraph but he could not. His heart attack did not let him do that. I am reading the same paragraph again, again and again while tears are flowing down on my cheeks.
“Dazzle’s life is in danger. Death is dancing around her.” my eyes are fixed on that. Slowly I am started feeling fear. What really my dad did want to say to me? There is no surprise if my life is in danger. There are so many enemies to my family around. If some of them are trying to kill me there is no surprise at all.
But it is not appearing like that. If my life is in danger because of some outward persons my dad would not have suffered like this. Something strange is in all this. Something I cannot even guess can happen. My dad witnessed something. Something strange, something that cannot be believed at all. Dad very strongly said I don’t believe it. Why dad felt I don’t believe it? What things I cannot believe at all even my dad said about them? My head is breaking into pieces. With whom I have to discuss this?
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“Dazzle, what all this is? Why your dad has written it like this? It is so much perplexing to me” reading the same paragraphs again and again Viola said.
“Why did not he say anything about this to you people also?”
“He has a firm opinion that you don’t believe it. He wrote in it strongly that you don’t believe it. He is of the same opinion that we too also don’t believe it. Just because of the opinion that we don’t believe it, he did not say anything at all about that to us.” Hissing heavily out Viola is saying. “I cannot think in any other way.”
“If he just lived one day more he sure would have shared that thing to me.”
“You are absolutely true.” Viola nodded her head. “But Dazzle I want to say something to you.”
I am listening quite carefully what she is saying. “It is more important than to know what your father wanted to say to you.” There is a pause. “He wrote that your life is in danger and death is dancing around you. Please be careful Dazzle, please be very careful. I just cannot tolerate if something happens to you.” Putting her hand around my shoulder Viola said.
I am also feeling fear but Viola’s feeling about me is moving me. “I shall be in my care. Don’t worry.” Kissing on her cheek I said.
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“This is all appearing quite strange and fearsome to me.” Now I am seeing fear and tension in my aunt’s eyes. “Why Dazzle? Why it has happened like that?”
I cannot understand clearly what my aunt is talking now.
“He always used to share everything to me. He treated me like his own sister. If there is such a danger to you because of something why did not he choose to say that to me?” there is anguish in her eyes.
“Oh, don’t feel too much about that. It is not because of anything but he did not remember you to say about that.” Trying to make the situation easier I am saying. “Nothing happens to me till now. I shall be careful in future also.”
“Take special care Dazzle. You are very important to all of us.” Now there is caution in her eyes.
“I promise I take full care of myself. Don’t worry about me.” Taking my aunt’s hand into mine and squeezing it I said.
My aunt nodded her head but still there is fear and concern in her eyes.
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Now I am on my bed again. Viola proposed to sleep with me but I denied that. I felt too much shameful to let Viola sleep like that with me just because I am having some useless experiences. I decided to see how any bad experience happens to me on this day. By Viola’s repeated saying I have convinced myself whatever experiences I have got upto now are only my imaginations but nothing more. In fact it is very difficult to convince myself so but I cannot see any other way at all. Viola is not saying anything at all except that was all my imagination.
But it is indeed a very difficult exercise to me to sleep. I closed my eyes tightly inviting sleep but I cannot. Sleep has become too merciless towards me it is not even seeing towards me. Different types of thoughts are invading on me mercilessly and I just don’t know how to escape from those.
Then George entered into my mind. Now I am feeling so good thinking about George. Why I am feeling this good just by the thoughts of George I cannot understand. George is handsome and intelligent but I never have thought that I do fall in love with George. I really cannot understand what really in George made me fall in love with him. Until very recently in my opinion in whatever high level position he may be George is only an employee in our conglomerate. Marrying or falling in love with George was indeed quite a low thing for me then. But now, how the situation has taken a turn like this? I cannot imagine my future without George at all.
I breathed deeply and hissed out relaxingly. Thoughts in me are slackening and I may fall in sleep just in few seconds. But I am hearing now something. What it is? It is a low sound but very clear to hear. In that night time it is very clear. Someone is weeping. Some woman is weeping. It is not from very far. I am hearing it from a very nearest place in my house but it is not loud. Who is that, who is that weeping? Or is it is just my imagination? I am now convincing myself that it is just my imagination but nothing more.
But that weeping sound is still continuing. Even with a small voice it is still crystal clear. Some woman is weeping! I just cannot manage myself anymore on the bed and got off from that. Now I am completely uneasy decided in myself to know the source of that weeping voice. I don’t think I have heard that voice anywhere before.
I opened the doors of my room and came outside. It appears that the sound is coming from the downstairs. I am descending the steps slowly and weeping voice is still in the same measure. It has not become higher or lower. Now I am walking on the floor of the downstairs irritating on myself that I cannot find exactly the spot from where that sound is coming. I just stopped beside Viola’s room. There is a bed light going on in Viola’s room and more surprisingly there are some sounds coming from inside of it. One window is half opened of that room. I went near to the window and opened that. Now I am looking through the window into Viola’s room.
I am shocked seeing the incident that is taking place in Viola’s room. Viola is completely naked on the bed and Williams is on her body. The whole room is illuminated by yellow bed-light and everything is so clear to me to see in that room. I intend to turn back immediately but I can’t as if something stopped me from doing so. Observing them both in a sexual act like that is giving me strong thrill.
Now that Williams is kissing feverishly all over the face of Viola and Viola’s hands are moving fervently on the back of the Williams. There are sounds emitted from the mouth of Viola and I can understand that she is making those sounds because of unbearable pleasure. I can remember that I too did make sounds like those while Nathaniel Zimbra and Chuck Watson were doing that to me. It seems this Williams also just like them an expert in it.
I closed my eyes tightly and turned back. If it were anyone else I may prefer to watch that. But Williams is a brother to me and I cannot witness his sexual act like that. Suddenly I remembered on what purpose I have come out of my room. The weeping sound of a woman! What happened to it? Surprisingly I am not listening any weeping now. I nodded my head helplessly and now I am walking towards my room.
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“I just don’t know how to consider all this is.” I am seeing real sorrow in the eyes of Nickerson while he is talking.
“I am not just a doctor to him and his family but a close friend also. I have shared everything that related to my life. I never kept anything of my life a secret to him. He did the same. He too never concealed anything from me. We shared everything with each other so freely. If there is something that much disturbing to him why did not he prefer to share that with me?”
“Not just to you doctor but he did not share it to anyone else either.” Looking into his face I said. I am not liking that he feels like that. I know that Dr.Nickerson is a great friend to my father.
“I am now feeling angry on him. If he had said anything about that we would have been quite careful and see that no danger befallen on you. He said that death is dancing around you. But how, how we can recognize it? How we can prevent any danger before that befalls on you?” with a helpless and irritating expression on his face, he said.
I hissed out heavily and closed my eyes. I don’t know what to say to that.
“He helped me in many a way. He helped me while I was in very difficult situations. Without his help I would not have been in this position now. But I could not do anything while he was suffering from heart attack.” The sorrow in his eyes and face is intensified even more. “And I just don’t know how to save his daughter either.”
“Doctor don’t worry like that at all please.” I don’t know why but I put my hand around his neck. “You are always quite careful in keeping his health good. You never wasted even a minute to come to him whenever he needed. It was the god’s decision that dad should leave us so and it happened like that. What we can do in it?”
“You are right I agree. Almighty god is always great.” Then he paused for a moment and started saying looking into my eyes. “The most important thing here darling, it appears that your life is in danger. For all our sake, not just yours, be in your care. None of us can tolerate if something happens to you. You should promise to me that you will be in your care all the time.”
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