Disturbed
(An investigative, romantic and psychological thriller)
By
Kotra Siva Rama Krishna
“Just common and a natural thing. We drink water whenever we feel thirsty. We eat food whenever we feel hungry. Do we think much about these?”
I became aghast! Even I am also a little liberal with sex, I cannot take it as easy is as drinking water and eating food.
“Be careful not to get diseases. That much is enough.” Viola said again
“I cannot take sex as easily as you are taking it.”
“What about your Nathaniel? How many times he might have done that to you by now?” with a sneer on her lips she asked me.
“I said in the beginning itself. Don’t mention mine here.”
“How should not I mention? How can you exclude yourself from this?”
“Oh, my god!” I gasped. “I agree I am allowing him to do that. But every time I am feeling that I am doing a mistake. Immoral.”
It was a long time back and Chuck did not enter into my life by then.
“Just get rid of this feeling. Enjoy it to the fullest extent possible. Or if you do think it is that much immoral stop it completely.”
“Why you are looking at me like this? Have you found anything different in me?” Finished her coffee and put the cup on the table there, Viola asked me.
“Nothing at all.” I laughed and came into the present. “You are indeed very attractive and youthful.”
“I must agree with you. Guys who spent time with me said it like that. Not just before that, after that also?”
I understood what she meant by that and it seems she noticed the change in my expression.
“Are you feeling odd with what I have said to you?” she frowned her brows together.
“Why do I feel odd? I am no less. I let two young men did that to me so far. I let one between them to do that to me even before I became a woman.”
“Are you feeling odd? Sinful?” the frowns thickened on the face of Viola.
“Sometimes. Yes.” I closed my eyes and leaned back in the sofa.
I felt a smooth touch on my shoulder and opened my eyes. Viola put her hand around my neck and is looking into my face.
“It is natural.” Viola smiled and said. “Feeling like that after a sexual acrobat with other people.”
“Are you also feeling like that whenever you have sex with boys?”
“Yes. Sometimes of course.” Viola breathed heavily and took off her hand. I am feeling relieved rid of that burden but Viola’s saying perplexed me.
“Why cannot we stop this?”
“What should we stop?”
“Having sex with guys before marriage?”
“Is it is okay to you having sex with guys after the marriage?”
“Shut up?” I yelled. “We do have sex from our husbands.”
“What it would be until then? Starving for sex?”
“But we are not feeling good doing it like that. You said that you are also not feeling good every time you are doing it.”
“We cannot help feelings Dazzle. They come and go. Just like tides in the sea. How many times you have had guilty feeling for having it like that? But that feeling did not remain in you forever. If you do feel guilty whenever after doing that just let that guilty feeling linger in you as long as it wants. You can see its going away slowly from you also.”
“You talk very peculiarly Ola. I need to learn a lot from you.”
“As we both are going to be together from now, I think we can discuss a lot.”
I am about to talk something more to Viola but I heard my cell phone ringing. I took it into my hand and looked at the screen. An unknown number and an unknown identity through true caller.
“Who it is this early morning?” before attending the call I said. “Hello?”
The other side is a woman and I am listening with interest while she is asking for my identification. “You are talking with the right person. Now tell me who you are and why do you want to talk with me?”
“You are the recent girl friend of Chuck Watson, are not you?”
I startled for that abruptness and am feeling angry. For a moment I cannot think of what to say. Viola also might have found out the peculiarity in that call and is interestingly looking into my face.
“First tell me who you are? Then I decide whether to answer your question or not.” I cannot refrain myself without getting angry. My anger is quite evident in my voice also.
“I am Chuck Watson’s wife.”
Once again I startled. A phone call direct from the Chuck’s wife! What she wants to talk with me? “You both have got divorce and living separate.”
“That is a lie. We neither have got divorce nor living separate.”
It is really very much surprising to me. I cannot believe this! I cannot imagine that Chuck Watson was that much big liar.
“I can prove if you do want. I looked after him all these days. Except looks he has got nothing else.” There is a pause. “Even he is skilled very much in his profession he does not prefer to practice it.”
It is really very difficult to me to believe. Even there would be no impact of this on my life, I just cannot believe it. Could Chuck that much big of a rogue and scoundrel!
“Chuck died with a heart attack.” I hissed out heavily and said.
“Good riddance to both of us.”
I just don’t know what to say immediately. But one paramount question in my mind is to ask her. “May I know the purpose behind this call?”
“I came to know about you through someone here. I came to know how deep you loved him.”
That woman is thinking that we both were deep lovers! No surprise. Anyone who found us like that thinks so. I did not say anything. I guess that woman is going to say something more.
“I want to find out how you are feeling now. If you are feeling too bad that he left the world leaving you, I want to say that there is no necessity like that. Chuck Watson is a cheater, rogue, rascal and scoundrel.”
“My god! I did not expect this at all! I never could think about him so!” I am saying without any flavor in my voice. “I thought he is only a liar but not this much.”
“No one can. His exterior is like that. But I can prove everything I have said to you.”
I don’t want to talk anything. In fact I don’t know what to talk. I don’t know why but deep inside me I am feeling satisfaction and relaxation.
“Thank you very much for the information. But I came to know that he was married even before you told me. I felt angry and cheated as he concealed that from me and severed my emotional tie also with him. There is no sort of relationship between us both by the time he died.” I explained to her.
“I am feeling very happy on hearing this from you. I thought you may be worrying about him too much and want to say he does not deserve that. He does not deserve a nice girl like you. I came to know fully about you.”
“Thank you very much.” I cannot think of what else to say
“I am forwarding my details to you. You can contact me whenever you feel the necessity of it.”
I thanked her once again and then she cut off the call.
I am feeling rage. I am feeling rage on myself than on that Chuck Watson. How that easily I have been hoodwinked by him? He came to me and introduced himself so and so. Knowing me about fully anyone good in appearance can do that to get a hand on my wealth. How I have believed him without even a simple doubt? I thought myself an intelligent all these days but in fact I am a fool! I cannot manage the prestigious conglomerate that my father built up with his hard work.
“What is that call Dazzle?” Viola asked me.
Now I am feeling anger towards Viola. She always encouraged my relationship with Chuck. Why did not she caution me?
“Chuck neither divorced nor living separate from his wife.” I said angrily.
“What? Who said that to you?” there are frowns again on her forehead.
“I talked direct with his wife.”
“What is the guarantee that she is his wife?”
“Shut up Viola.” I yelled. “There is no necessity to anyone to phone to me and tell all this. Chuck died and there is no difference now whatever might be my relationship with him. She forwarded all her details to me and she knows very well I can make further enquiries and know about the truth.”
“First tell me whatever she talked with you. Then only I can make a comment.”
Viola is listening carefully while I am saying whatever I have heard from that woman. Even before I finished she said “My god! I never have expected it like this!”
“The information is not troubling me. There are plenty of people like him around. What I cannot understand is: how I believed him that blindly? How I behaved that foolishly? Being the owner of a conglomerate like this why could not I notice the fact in what a precarious condition I am? Anyone can woo me with his looks, trap me and then ……….”
“You are absolutely right. But it is not because only of your foolishness Dazzle. I am also encouraged you a lot to develop your relationship with him.” Viola paused a second and then saying again. “I saw him in videos you shown to me and talked with him. I just could not think of him so. I am very sorry.”
“There is no fault of you in this Ola. Don’t unnecessarily blame yourself.” I sighed heavily. What is the wrong of Viola in this? She did not know anything about him. I myself introduced Chuck to him and made her talk with him. No surprise Chuck has had an impression on her like that with his appearance and smooth talking as he has on me.
“It is not so Dazzle” Viola got off from the sofa. “You are right in what you have said. I have encouraged you in developing your relationship with him. He appeared so nice to me. He talked like that with me.” There is regret in her eyes.
I am not interested in saying anything. There is no fault in her with respect to my relationship with Chuck.
“Thank god! You have severed all your connections with him a long time back itself.”
I am also feeling like that. In fact something deep inside me always told me he was not correct for me.
“Alright. I am going to the office now. Would you come with me?” I asked her.
Viola yawned heavily and said “I am feeling like sleepy. I want to sleep some more time.” She paused for a moment and then is asking me again “Is there anything new in the office matters?”
“Did I mention my newly appointed secretary?”
“You did. Nova Harrison. Husband expired. Having two children. You are very much satisfied with her.”
“Then there is nothing new I can report to you now.”
“Have a nice time in the office.”
“Thank you. I am leaving now.”
(I hope that you enjoyed upto here. I shall publish the next chapter as soon as possible. Please don’t forget to rate and review.)
