l just got this realisation that my life till now and even right now is on surviving not living . I don't know what it feels like to live . I don't know what it makes you feel . I don't know if my emotions are real . I just don't know anything about myself. It's all blank , completely blank like I didn't write anything there .
When i stare in mirror, my eyes look hollow. I see my younger self through them who I love very much. Then I realised that I am running from my current self , that is why I see my past self .
I don't know if my emotions are real . Or are my responses real ? Was my trauma real ? Is anything I remember is real ?
The blankness of knowing nothing but still staring at myself in eyes .
I don't feel the way I want myself to . I love myself but my body screams that I am lying.
Do anyone else feel like this ?
ARE WE ALIVE AND LIVING ?
