😞😞😞Here we go....
So, this is my second story in which I'm writing about love. I had another ID in this app where I wrote a series "Crush stories". I thought I'll not write anything about love again. But I think I have to......
So what's this story all about? It's about my journey, my experience and my advice. Advice about what...?
Advice about love.
But why would I share my experience and write about my love journey here. It's just because I think I want to. So grab your seats ladies and gentlemen. The story is about to begin.
Ohhh wait! Before starting let me introduce myself to you all -
I am Sahil Gaikwad, a second year computer engineering student, and a passionate writer who loves writing about my own life and experiences. So today I am just writing a small yet very entertaining chapter of my life, that is, my second love.
If you don't know about my first love then you must read the "Crush Stories" series from my old ID "SCG stories" where I wrote very beautiful things about my first love 😘. This part is where I am going to talk about my second chapter - My Second Love😳. So again😅 grab your seats ladies and gentlemen the story begins in.......
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So, after I got rejected from my first love, It took me around 4 months to move on from her. Of course having a crush on someone for 7 years and moving on from that person is difficult, but somehow I managed to move on...... And by the way, all this moving on stuff was back in 2023 and I was 16 years old☹️, 10th grade.
After my 10th boards in which I scored 86%😇🥳, I was living a very peaceful life in my village for almost a month. After that, my school decided to commence the 11th grade from the the month June.
I came back from my Village to my hometown and was busy buying new books, uniform, stationery and many more things, my school was going to begin on 11th of June 2024.
I was excited, i felt more energetic. I began thinking about my next phase of my life where I have to study 11th grade and 12th grade. I was excited to meet new teachers, meet new friends, meet her.......😳😳😳😳.
So, it was 11th June and day came for me to attend my first day of 11th class. It was raining quite heavily. I don't why it always rains so heavily during my first day of joining school. Currently, during my first day of 2nd year college, it was raining so heavily.....⛈️⛈️🌧️
Anyways, moving back to the past.... So it was raining heavily and I was late for the school. By the way my mother is a librarian in the same school in which I studied. So I was always a very disciplined and obedient kid because if I did a slight mischief, all teachers will go to my mother to complain about me. For other students, parent-teacher meeting happens thrice a year but for me, it happened everyday😱😨😨😰😭.
So me and my mother went together to school and reached late. Mother went straight to the library after her check-in and I was searching my classroom. A teacher was standing near a classroom. She calls me and points the classroom where I have to sit. I went in and saw many students sitting. I was the only late comer😨😔.
So I came inside class in a hurry and got a seat. I saw completely new faces and I thought all my friends took admission in other schools. But I saw one of my classmate (not friend). I am not going to take his name but I sat beside him. We talked for a while when suddenly another teacher came in and said "The class is changed, it is on the third floor".
Now, all the things that I said, I was late and I entered in a hurry. There was this very small moment (milliseconds) where I saw a beautiful looking girl. I saw her for a very short moment and my mind was like "yeah dude, she's the one👍"
So after I went to third floor, got a seat and our class teacher began introducing himself, I was busy observing that girl. She had spects and looking straight to the board. I thought she's a topper (I am topper too). That girl was sitting with another girl. I didn't even observed her partner's face because my focus was totally on her😝.
But here comes the twist. There was this another guy who was sitting on the other side of my classmate. We three were discussing that there are no beautiful girls in our school🙈🙏🙏. But then this guy, who was sitting beside my classmate instantly pointed her and said that he likes her.
💔💔💔. That's it. My heart broke before it even began to heal. I got a competitor during my first day itself. What a great luck God has given me😞😞😞.
Instead of competing with this guy for that girl. I gave up. I decided not to approach her and let this guy be with her. Honestly, that was the best decision ever, you'll get to know this later that why it was better to give up on her.
For 2-3 days I was focused on studies. No such crush, no love, just busy meeting new people and studying. Few teachers knew me already because I was studying in my school for 15 years and my mother is also working there.
Within these 2-3 days, I sat with my old classmate and just beside us on the other row, there was a girl sitting. She was the partner of that beautiful girl I thought I had a chance with......
But because she was sitting on another row and I was sitting beside my classmate, he and that girl were talking together. He shared his water bottle to her, he shared pen with her, she shared her notebook. Looking at them I was like "Ok, you guys go on. I'm still busy filling my old cracks😞💔💔".
You know it feels quite jealous and disappointing. When you see couples doing the exact things you imagined with your crush. It feels sad 😢.
This girl who was speaking with my classmate took an optional subject Computer science. I also took the same subject Computer science but my classmate chose physical education.
So one day we had a computer science class and we were heading towards computer lab. Before that class during that whole day, my classmate was busy speaking with her and sometimes she also spoke to me. I also spoke with that girl but knew very well that my luck will not make me and her together. Guess what - I WAS WRONG😳.
the computer science lecture was about to start. We both were heading towards the computer lab. She was singing some song which I never heard about and then she suddenly said to me - "I don't know if I'm singing a song, or reciting a prayer🙏"
And I replied to her "whatever you are singing, you are singing it terribly 😂".
We both laughed, I noticed her smile and laugh. It made me feel happy. It gave me the sense that even if I'm not happy, I can make someone happy. I began teasing her for her singing skills and then she suddenly bumped her shoulder onto my shoulder. And that's it🙌🙌. This is enough to make me fall for her. But I still controlled myself and gave her a shoulder bump back. But I did it quite forcefully and she disbalanced her self. I held her by her arms and asked if she's ok or not. She replied she was ok and smiled back to me.
When we reached the lab. She took a seat. I saw that other boys are sitting in a group behind so I thought to join them. Just I was about to leave her and join the boys, she suddenly grabbed my hand and told me to sit with her😳😱😱.
I mean what??!!!! She grabbed my hand. My first crush, I sat with her during school for so many times yet she never grabbed my hand and this girl instantly wanted me to sit with her. I definitely cannot say no to her. My mind was like " Sahil, you have to sit with her or else you are done".....
I was just about to sit with her but guess what, just infront of us was our class teacher who was busy searching something on computer. He saw her hand on my hand. He looked at me and got angry 😠.
That's it, I decided to leave her the exact moment because if I stayed, the class teacher will surely tell this to my mother and I don't want a complaint during the initial days of my 11th grade. I instantly took my hand out, and said sorry to her, and left her😔😔😔😔😢💔.
I joined the boys, had a good time making fun and jokes. After all this, I was sitting alone and I noticed her looking at me in the most romantic and lovely way possible. She saw me in a way as if she wanted me, she liked me. She wanted me to make a move and stay with her. I tried my best but still difficult to control my self, I went to washroom🙈. I was so happy. I thought I finally got someone to love, someone who can help me move on from my first crush. Someone with whom I can stay with forever ♾️.
I came back. I saw her again looking at me. She was so serious for me and we both were continuously blushing at each other in a romantic way. Other girls were noticing us and got a hint that something is between me and that girl.
I was happy 😊, that I found someone after 1 year of heartbreak 💔. Someone who can help me heal, someone I can love just the way I loved my past crush. Those days were amazing.
From that day onwards, a new love chapter began in my life. We both started sharing our things like notes, stationeries, we used to talk everyday in class, we used to look at each other every second and after. She knew that I loved her. I was also sure that she loved me, but I can't prove it because it's actually difficult to read women's minds🤐.
One day, we had our physics class. I was sitting with my new friend. She was sitting just beside me but in another row. We did the same things, looking at each other every few seconds, smiling, talking....She now looked at me constantly....
When her eyes met mine 👀, everything felt silent. It seemed that time has went slow. Everyone is moving in slow motion and suddenly she says "Give me your notebook!"
I instantly gave her the notebook. She began writing something on my notebook with pencil. I was curious 🧐. What is she writing?. After few minutes, she gives me the notebook back and tells me to check the last page of the notebook.
I checked the last page. She wrote something that completely blew my mind 🤯🤯🤯🤯. She wrote - "Do you love me?"
I was shocked, I was surprised 🙀. This was the first time a girl wrote this on my notebook. I wanted to write 'yes'. But then it will be too direct and it won't create much fun and excitement. So I flipped the script. I replied - "What do you think?"
She saw what I wrote. She grabbed her pencil and instantly wrote "Yes, but why don't you tell me??"
Now, I was done.... I mean she knows I love her but then she wants me to propose her. But I always mess up the moments. Instead of writing her "I love you" , I wrote "I'm afraid you'll reject me"🤦🏻♂️🤦🏻♂️🤦🏻♂️. I'm the most stupid guy when it comes to mess up such moments. She read my reply, looked at me as if she was not expecting this kind of a reply.
Even after all this. We still had a good time together. For almost a month, we were talking, eye contact, smiling, laughing, writing in each other's notebooks. We knew there is love between us. But it was not official.
After a month, I asked her if she's on social media. She was not on social media. I used insta, snapchat even though my mother didn't allow me for it. But I wanted to convince my love to join social media so that we could chat online. She said she didn't want to be on social media. My heart sank. But it's fine, everyone has their choices. But after a week, she downloads Snapchat and gave me her ID. I went home and sent her a request and she accepted it. We used to chat for hours, for the whole night. We talked about where we lived, what we liked, about those moments we had in class.
Slowly I began calling her baby😳😏😏. Then I called her my jaan. I flirted with her online and in the class. The entire class was aware that we had some chemistry going on. They began teasing me with her name and teased her by taking my name. We both blushed hard🥰. It seemed that the year 2024 was a great time for me. After losing my first crush, this girl gave me the hope that "you might lose your gold for a diamond in return"....
God not only gave me love, it gave me fame, it gave me my prime.....
😌😌😌, those days....
I just got a flashback... So for now, let me just remember those days and end this part of my second love here. The next part is where the real plot begins because the girl I thought was about to fill my cracks, she broke me more instead.
The plot will come soon in the next part -
Crush Stories 4 - The Prime
Till then, take care, keep falling in love because life feels boring when you are too much busy into your work schedule and studies 😌☺️☺️
Thank you ❤️
