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chapter- 3
Our British-style old bungalow has a long veranda, which is attached with two bedrooms. In the southeast corner of the veranda, in front of Babu's room, there we made a little temple for everyday prayers.
Before every prayer, I clean my mandir with a dry wet cloth and clean all used utensils.
Firstly, I lit up a clay-made diya with mustard oil in front of our main entrance gate to get the blessing of our ancestors.
Then in my home temple, during prayers, I keep some sweet candies on a small size brass plate and water in a little glass, it is an offering for God. Then light up a brass metal diya with batti and ghee and also light up three dhoop sticks for an authentic aroma that helps me to connect myself with the divine power of the universe during my process of prayer and meditation.
I end my prayer with the loud echo sound of a shank. And after it was done I again clean all utensils and the praying area, the whole process took almost thirty minutes.
"Now the time is 6:45 pm, office was closed at 5:00 pm but where is he(Tan)? what is going on exactly in his mind? Why he is not coming home yet?" I was continuously thinking even during my prayer.
Also since this afternoon, it started to rain, and the heavy wind is blowing. In this kind of weather, he always comes home on time or earlier than time.
But today he is late, so I was thinking, in this situation," he may have a workload at his office, or possibly the fight happened with me at today's lunchtime, and for this reason, he probably has been reporting to his parents about his gold digger wife and also about his ruined married life, sitting somewhere nearby his office building."
I went into Babu's room, she is still studying. I asked her," which subject are you reading now?"
She said," Psychology, Maa you know, today our sociology Mam asked us to watch a spiritual movie, the story of the movie is based on a real-life experience that she had witnessed as she was a child".
I said," Babu, I think your teacher is well aware of the forces of the universe."
She said, "yes maa, as a daughter of a saman family, her perspective on humans, natural and supernatural forces is different from other people. I like the way she answers my doubt, it gives me satisfaction.
Both scientifically and mythologically she is well versed because from her childhood she experienced multiple problems herself and also helped many by counseling. And her grandfather, who was a great Samoan, healed many people,"
I said "Babu, you mean...your teacher being a psychologist, also believes in God. "
She said, "yes Maa, teacher told me that, when she was young, she did not like her grandfather. Because she thought that, what the shit grandfather is doing with innocent people, he is making them fools."
"but now as a psychologist, she is well knowledgeable about the human brain and body function. With self-discipline, a human can connect with the universe's great power, and this power can be used upon all living beings for good or bad."
I said, " Babu that means that your father's behaviors towards us are not normal. His brain is hacked by his mother, I mean his soul is captured by his mother. That's why he did not know what he was saying or doing. your father is like a robot in his mother's hand, and this fact is not an unrealistic matter.
That's mean it is not just my or our illusi right?
And once more time we are proven that we are on the right track. "
She said," of course, there is no question left about our existence. And we are on the right track."
Then I took a deep sigh, and said, "our mother, I mean Maa Mahamaya is always with us. She always shows us the right path whenever we feel lost in human emotions." "Although we were born with our power, we should not use it unnecessarily. Because we are here human too. And punishment...."
we were lost in our conversation deeply. then our doorbell rang. Immediately we stopped our conversation and I ran to the main gate to open it.
I opened the gate, and he is came back now, the time is 8:15.
He entered the house and then I closed the gate. I start walking just behind him, he goes to the veranda there is our sitting area.
He sat on a chair and was taking off his st was standing close to him and I Was wat him carefully. T
He did not say even a single word, that's why I was thinking if I say anything or ask the reason for coming home this late, I don't know what kind of wind will blow upon me.
so, right then I went to the kitchen and brought him a glass of water.
I requested," AJ(honey)takes the water."
And asked him softly, "at this late hour, your seniors are not gone home yet?
They leave you this late, even though today's weather conditions are bad."
He drank the water and kept the glass on the tea table in front of him. But he did not speak anything and went to the washroom.
Immediately, I understand that today he would not be able to listen to or understand my words, whatever I speak from my mouth.
His brain is not in normal condition.
When Tan was in the washroom, I went to our room where Lola and Lova were waiting, behind the locked door. I did lock the door because it was raining outside. And don't want them wet in the rainwater.
They were so excited to come out and meet him. That's why I pet them and play with them for a few minutes and calm them down. Then Tan came into the room and changed his uniform.
After that, he was standing in front of the mirror to comb his hair and apply some moisturizer. Even then, he did not speak any words to all of us, and his facial expression was like a total villain.
Then I said to him, " it is already late today, please don't sit in front of your laptop or computer screen, come to the dining room to have dinner."
She answers, "yeah, I am coming."
Okay, don't make me call you again and again. Come quickly, I am going to the kitchen." I said to her.
Lola and Lova were in the room and waiting for their papa to pet them and they continuously shook their tail. The atmosphere of the room was not pleasant, so I did not say anything and went to the kitchen.
First, I prepared a plate of salad, and I put some salty and spicy snacks on another plate. And bring them to the dining table, where Tan was already seated. He also came in after me, when I was preparing plates.
He was watching a series on tv in the dining room. As always he was watching a crime story, and like all other days, his full alcohol glass was on the table.
He did not answer. So I ask him again, " would you like to eat any other snacks? if you don't, then I will start making chapatis."
Oh, after a long silence, he says," if you have marinated chicken in the fridge, then cook some for me."
I said, "Okay"
Right then, I keep the marinated from the fridge and keep a pan on the gas stove for making the frying dish.
When the dish was cooking, I also kept other dishes to heat up and start making chapatis.
Within thirty minutes I finish cooking and bring everything on the table.
But Babu is not coming yet, so I went to her room and said,
"Are you coming or not? Come quickly, food will get cold."
She nodded her head still buried in book
Then I came back to the dining room and sat down on the couch, where Tan was sitting on the right side of me.
(Although I did not like to watch crime stories, these give me a negative vibes. But at any cost, I have to keep my mind and soul positive.)
Babu also came there, she took out her food on a plate and sat in front of me, on a chair.
Here the thing is, whether we like it or not it does not matter, but we have to watch the story with him and we have to agree with him when he will pass comments on the story.
If we say anything against him, it will be a bad night for us.
So I and Babu were both watching the crime series with him and eating silently.
But this calm environment gets disturbed with his words, as suddenly Tan asks Babu,
" Babu, what will you do if I don't give money? I think you are adequately grow now, so answer me."
Her face stayed passive but down as she refused to answer.
But he asked again, "Babu answered me".
She said," I will stay with Maa."
Tan said with a villain's attitude, " no, you don't understand my words, I mean, your mother will not be in this world. And I will leave you alone, then how will you manage your living expenses?"
