Disturbed
(An investigative, romantic and psychological thriller)
By
Kotra Siva Rama Krishna
“Alright.” Placing himself gently beside me and hugging me once again hard George said. I am feeling so much secured in his hug. I am feeling like this when I hug my dad putting my hands around his neck. What Viola said is true. I am looking for a father figure also along with a husband.
“Why really you do want to marry me Dazzle?” while we both are enjoying the physical intimacy like that, he asked me.
“I cannot say but I am feeling a strong attraction towards you George. What causes it in me I cannot say. But my psychologist friend Viola said two reasons for my feeling like this towards you.” I am telling him now what Viola has said to me. “Viola is indeed a wonderful psychologist!”
“Yes, you are right. I am also feeling just like that about her.” He is working on me in a steady manner and I am immensely enjoying every movement of him.
“Is there no woman in your life till now George?” The steadiness in him is surprising to me. “Why you have remained unmarried?”
“You might have some information from the detectives you employed Dazzle. What they have said?’ he sighed heavily and asked me.
“They could not detect any woman in your life at any point of time George. You have grown up in an orphanage. You have come up in your life only with your hard work and intelligence.” Encircling him with my hands and kissing perfunctorily on his right cheek I said. His close touch with my body is not letting me remain without reciprocating like that.
“That information is only partly true Dazzle. Your detectives are not as much skillful as you are thinking. I have women in my life. To be frank, I have it with three women. Women little older to me, medium older to me and quite older to me.”
“George, is it is true?” I am shocked on hearing that. George really must be joking! It cannot be true.
“I am telling you the truth Dazzle. Once we have come this far I want you to know all about my life. But I never did that to any woman against her will and wish.”
The bluntness in his saying so is making me feel uneasy. Even I myself led a free way of life I cannot digest such type of a life to George.
“Are you feeling regret Dazzle? Are you feeling regret to love and marry a man who has a very free way of life?” breathing deeply and looking into my face while hissing out heavily George asked me.
“No George. How do I? I myself have led a very free way of life. There were two men in my life George. I enjoyed full physical intimacy with both of them. But now both of them are dead.”
George is hearing keenly while I am saying. “But George from now onwards you are the only man going to be in my life. I am not going to order you or dictate you. You may lead your life in the way you want. But remain my man also till the end. That is enough.” George is in work while I am talking with him making me even more and more euphoric. Quite ironically I am remembering Nathaniel and Chuck. They both also used to do it like that. I am wondering whether all the men copulate with women in the same way.
George suddenly stopped what he is doing and looking into my face. “How you can think it like that Dazzle? How you can say so?” there is distress in his voice and saying again while I am intently listening. “I myself said I have led a very free way of life and there were women in my life. But I never have felt any emotional or sentimental attachment with them. That was just for a physical need sometimes for them and sometimes for both, them and to me. But it is not so in your case.” He paused for a moment as if to give more pressing to what he was going to say. “I am adoring you Dazzle. I am seeing my great mentor, god, teacher who has given me life in you also. You are his daughter. I am now promising to you. There shall never be any other woman in my life. It will be only you and you only.”
Quite unintentionally I have started kissing all over his face. The happiness in me reached its motto after hearing what just George has said. George is such an outspoken person! Really I am very lucky that I have picked someone who not just loves me but adores me. I never have felt like this either with Nathaniel or Chuck. George is indeed wonderful in all respects.
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“I used to work as a police inspector. Then I resigned to that job and started my life as a private investigator.”
After seeing the private investigator, Mr.Smaran, whom George sent to me, I have to change my opinion drastically about detectives. This Smaran appears to have an age between forty five to fifty, tall, strongly built and handsome. Even before making any conversation with him I started feeling he is capable. I have given strict instructions not to send anyone into my room while I am in discussion with Smaran and there should be no disturbances whatsoever. I know there shall be no disturbances whatsoever until I give the further instructions. I switched off my cell phone also.
Already we talked some and through that conversation I came to know that Smaran has degrees in law and psychology also. He said he dealt with many high level mysteries also in the past and never faced failure in any of his investigations.
After that we have a discussion about the terms and conditions for his undertaking any investigation. Smaran is pretty tough in them. He made it quite clear that at any point of time, however absurd it may seem, I should not try to stop him from proceeding with the way he want to investigate. Even it is quite embarrassing and irritating his questions to me or to my relatives, they should be allowed and answered. Whatever he may think fit to do to get the result in the investigation I have to allow it. He already made an agreement with that respect in duplicate and made me sign on it. I became so much irritated and angered on seeing the terms of it, but the word I have given to George, made me sign without a murmur.
“Mr.Smaran, my case here is rather peculiar. I really doubt whether a detective however capable he may be can be helpful in this.” leaning back in my chair and observing him closely I am saying. “You know it is mainly because of George……”
“Its alright.” Smaran’s interference in the middle irritated me a little. “First we go into the details, then I shall see whether it is worth investigating or not.”
“Okay” I nodded my head. Anyhow Smaran’s handsome and calm appearance is keeping me in cool. Subconsciously I am feeling he is good. “Anyhow there is one thing that you can pretty look into. That is, my dad so much wanted to say something with me before his death. But he died even before saying any of that to me.”
“I want to hear it in more detail.”
I saw the point in what he said and started saying about that episode as clear and in detail as possible. How I received the phone call while I was in USA, how much agitated my dad sounded, how desperately he wanted me to come to India to tell something to me.
“Your dad did not mention anything about that while he was talking with you over phone?”
This time Smaran’s interference did not irritate me. “If my dad did so.” I am saying “Half the mystery has been solved.”
“Sorry for the interruption. Please continue.” Hissing out heavily Smaran said.
I am explaining to him how I have found my dad died in my home after my coming from that far. “He died with a heart attack.”
“Are you sure that your father died with a heart attack?”
“Yes.” I nodded my head. “There is no doubt at all in it. My dad is having a severe heart problem.”
“Your father did not say anything about it even a little of it to anyone else, even to his very closed ones?” He knitted his brows together.
“That’s the problem. No. My aunt, my brother Williams, my friend Viola and Dr.Nickerson all these people were so much intimated with my dad. He used to share all his views and things with them. He did not mention anything of that to any of these people. Dr.Nickerson, who is a very close friend to my dad, who attended every illness of my father, who attended him when he suffered the heart attack for the last time and declared he was dead, was also not told anything about that matter.”
“Was Dr.Nickerson attended your father while he was alive?”
“No. My father died even before he comes to my house.”
Smaran nodded his head “Anything else about this episode?”
“This is my father’s diary.” I put the book on the table which I am keeping all the time beside me. “My father was not in the habit of writing each and everything in the diary. He did not write it regularly either. But this is somewhat related to that.” Showing the paragraph my dad wrote in the diary to Smaran I said.
Smaran is now reading that paragraph in the diary. Once he read it he closed that. “Death is dancing around Dazzle. Her life is in danger.” He is saying the sentences he read in the diary just now. May be a little different but context the same. “But there is no clue whatsoever of it.” And “Dazzle does not believe it. It is not easy to convince her.” without looking into the diary he said again. Smarana has good memory power also.
“You are right. Why my dad tried to be that much secretive I just cannot understand.” I am saying now. “In fact he did not want to be secretive. He wanted to write that matter there but he could not. He wrote that on the day he suffered that last severe heart attack. He could not manage to write anymore than that.”
Smaran once again opened the diary at that page and looked at that paragraph. “You are absolutely right.” He is saying again after a nod and little pause. “It is indeed a very important piece of information. Even he could not give a clue directly he mentioned it indirectly.” Looking meaningfully into my eyes Smaran said.
“What that is?” it caused interest in me.
“Read the sentences in that diary again Miss Dazzle.”
I am now reading the sentences once again irked by the behavior of Smaran. I am completing the sentences. “Stop” he said once again irritating me a lot. “Don’t you see? It is so clear there.”
“What is so clear there? I am not seeing anything clear cut in it.” This time I cannot keep my irritation in myself.
“Dazzle does not believe it. It is not easy to convince her.” Smaran is saying. “It means that it is something you very well know Miss Dazzle. Otherwise the problem of your don’t believing would not come into it. If you are hearing it for the first time from your father, what is the necessity to him to convince you?”
For the first time I am seeing difference in thinking between Smaran and me. My irritation vanished and I said with a smile “Yes, you are right.”
“So, one part of my investigation is what that your father that desperately wanted to tell you and died before giving even a small hint of it.”
“That is the major part of your investigation Mr.Smaran.” I am saying. “You just don’t know how much I am suffering and struggling myself to know about that. My dear dear dad so desperately wanted to say something to me and died without sharing any of it. How anyone does feel in my place?”
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