Disturbed
(An investigative, romantic and psychological thriller)
By
Kotra Siva Rama Krishna
“Never. I never allow such type of things to happen.” He leaned back and closed his eyes. I am observing him so keenly. George is indeed very handsome. Despite of his forty four years age, he is appearing quite young and his hair is completely black. Whether he colored it or it is naturally black like that I cannot understand.
“In fact your father and I quarreled on one occasion for this matter. He wanted to pledge our Net company shares to make some investment. In fact without my knowledge he pledged them too. But I made him release the pledge immediately. I threatened him to leave you people if he did not do it like that.”
Now he opened his eyes and is straightly looking into my eyes.
“Just in the next moth quite unfavorable circumstances came in that sector and our Net shares came down drastically. Your father personally applauded me for my wisest decision.”
“I must say we are like this now just because of your clever decisions.” I know I cannot get rid of admiration in my eyes.
“I agree my decisions helped you people to some extent. But they are not the sole reason for the position of your company on this day. Except on few occasions, your dad took all the clever decisions. He is very clever and intelligent. He is the person who put the seed of this conglomerate, watered it and made it this much big! How can ever we forget about this?”
I am not talking anything but listening intently. Listening like this about my father is making me happy.
“I still can remember the first day I met your father. It is fifteen years or so back. I was one of the fifteen who could reach the final stage. Your father selected me. He said to me on that day. ‘I found something separate and definite in you rather than your qualifications and intelligence. It is just my hunch that you will be quite helpful to us. That is why I am giving you this position even you don’t have much useful experience.’ I really could not believe my ears on that day. I never have expected that I could get that job. I was really having not much useful experience whatsoever by then.”
“But you really made our father’s hunch true.” I am smiling and I have seen the change of the expression on Geroge’s face. I know that my smile has a mesmerizing effect on the other people.
“I learnt everything only here Dazzle. I learnt a lot that I did not learn in my studies. I learnt a lot here from your father which I cannot learn in any other way at all.”
“Is it is so? I am feeling very much thrilled to hear all this.” I am really feeling very much thrilled while hearing from him so.
“I must say I have associated with your father and intimated with your father more than you in a different way Dazzle. Most of the time we are like friends. On some times we are quarreled. I did not really mean but on one or two occasions I threatened him to leave him.”
“I know about those occasions George. Whether you may not know but he was very much disturbed at those times. He did not like it even a little bit. Then we understood what a control you are having on our organizations.” I am smiling again. I am not feeling even a little bit of anger on George.
“I am sorry Dazzle. I am terribly sorry now and even then also. I have to do it like that only out of compulsion. Only to do some good to you people. It is never my intention to make your father feel unhappy.” I am seeing now regret in the eyes of George.
“I can understand that George.” I quickly took the hand of George into my hands and kissed on that. I squeezed his hand in my hands.
There is a terrific change in the expression of George. He is trying to withdraw his hand but I held it strongly in my hands. Oh, what I am doing? What type of feeling I am pumping into George by my behavior? I really don’t like to leave his hand but his troubling feeling made me leave it.
He hissed out heavily and now keeping his hands in his lap. May be he is feeling fear that I may attempt that again.
“It is indeed a rude shock Dazzle. A rude shock to me that Thomas died like that. I know that he had a heart problem. I know that he was in precarious condition. But I did not expect like that at all that he would die so.”
Now I am feeling sad again. The memories of my father once again invaded on me.
“I am sorry. I don’t want to make you feel bad.”
“I never feel bad thinking about my dad.” With firmness in my voice I said. “I may feel sad but never bad.”
There is silence for few seconds and I am saying again. “Death of my dad is more than a shock to me. It made me numb. If it is only the death I may not have worried this much.” I am feeling irritation and came off my chair and went middle of the room. “But what that is, he that much desperately wanted to share with me? What that could be? My head is just breaking into pieces thinking about it.”
“You have asked me whether he shared anything related that with me.” The calm expression on the face of George is surprising to me.
“I have asked the same thing to some more people who are quite intimated with dad.” I am observing carefully the expression in the face of George. Does he know about it but not wants to tell me?
“Don’t you know anything about it?” I cannot remain without asking. I am straight looking into his face trying to assess what he is really thinking. But he is as enigmatic as before. I have discussed about that matter with George also before. He reacted then also just as he is reacting now.
“I don’t know Dazzle. I really don’t know about it.” He is saying keeping the same sorrowful and enigmatic expression on his face. “Your dad did not say anything about that to me also.”
But the expression on his face is making me perplexed. It is just like that he knows about it but he does not want to say anything about it to me.
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I am feeling perplexed and embarrassed now. I just cannot understand why I behaved like that? What happened to all my antagonistic feeling towards George? I used to be quite angry with him as he made my dad irritated like that on some occasions. What happened to all that angry?
May be I am embarrassed, but I am not at all feeling that I did a mistake by taking that George’s hand like that into my hands and kissed on that. I am feeling that I did something very important without making too much delay. My subconscious love feeling towards George has been expressed unintentionally like that, I am thinking. I am feeling shame but happy also.
Sure Gorge also quite embarrassed when I have kissed like that on his hand. It was quite natural on his part and he could not have expected it so at all. Still he may be taking all that is just something casual on my side and I have just expressed my gratitude like that to him but I have to make the point quite clear that I am in love with him. Without a speck of doubt it has been cleared to me that I am deeply in love with George.
“What you are thinking Dazzle? You are appearing quite jubilant now.” I am looking at Viola who slumped beside me on the sofa.
“Am I really appearing quite happy to you?” looking into the eyes of Viola I asked her.
“After a very long time Dazzle” Viola paused for a moment then said again “I am seeing this much of happiness in you. Is there any particular reason for it?”
“Sure there is.” I hissed out heavily. Now I am quite willing to disclose the reason for my happiness to Viola. Viola is a very close friend to me and keeping this as a secret in myself is betrayal to that friendship.
“Share that with me Dazzle. I am quite eager to hear it.” Coming even more close to me Viola said.
Looking into her eyes and observing her expression carefully I am telling her my feelings towards George. Viola’s expression started changing slowly and in the end it turned to horrific.
“My god! Dazzle! Do you know what you are doing?”
“I am doing everything in a perfect way Ola. Feeling love towards someone is not a sin. Now I am feeling love so strongly towards this George.”
“George is more than fifteen years older to you Dazzle. How you can love him? How ridiculous it would be?”
“Pure love does not see for convenience, comfort, age and other things Dazzle. If it sees for such type of things it is not pure love. I am thinking that I am in pure love with George.” I am firm in what I am saying. “There is no question that I do leave George.”
“But Dazzle.” There is firmness in the voice of Viola also. “This George many a time irritated your father. Threatened him that he would leave your organizations. You were quite angry with him till recently.”
“That was all for a good reason Ola. Even on a single occasion our organizations suffered because of his decisions. In fact he saved us on many a time. Dad himself said about that to me.”
“Alright then. I resign.” Viola laughed loudly and said. “If you are that much firm in your love, let it be. As you say, George may be older to you in age, but he is educated, handsome and intelligent. Congratulations for your newly found love, Dazzle.”
“Thank you very much.” I hugged Viola strongly and kissed on her cheek. “I don’t want to delay too much to convey my love to him.”
“But I am afraid.” Viola said. “He is not a type like loving and marrying. I think he is above forty and not married still. It may be a positive point for you but think why did not he get married yet?”
“Only to marry me, only to give a chance to make him my man.” I laughed heartily and said again. “I cannot say any other reason except this for it.”
“First tell your love to him Dazzle. Don’t delay it too long.”
“Are you thinking that he may pick up someone else if I delay too long?” With a frown on my forehead I asked
“There is no such danger I think.” Viola said with a smile. “As he remained a bachelor even past forty insinuating that he does not want to marry at all. But….” She paused and I am waiting eagerly to hear what she is going to say. “These types of things should not be delayed too long to convey.”
“I hundred percent agree with you on this.” I nodded my head in agreement.
“If you want I do help you in conveying your love to him.”
“Thank you for your suggestion. But it is my love and I want to convey it to him myself.”
“Quite right decision. I wish you all the best.”
“I wish you also to love someone and get married Viola. Is there no one at all in your heart yet to marry?”
“No of course.” Viola nodded her head in negation. “I am not against love and marriage. But there is no one in my heart to marry yet.”
“Find someone. If you want I help you in selecting someone to love and marry.”
“It is my love and my marriage. I myself select someone to love and marry.”
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