An untellable secret
(Some secrets may better remain secrets for ever)
Kotra Siva Rama Krishna
“Alright then.” Smaran nodded his head.
“Can you find out anything concrete to know about that?”
“We have almost reached there. I am sensing it in the back of my mind. It takes just one or two days. Some crucial steps have to be taken to reveal that substantially and convincingly before you.”
“Cannot you share, cannot you explain some of that to me?” in a pleading tone Ranganath asked him.
“Just wait one or two days. It shall be crystal clear to you then. Even I say now what I am thinking it would be frustrating and confusing to you.”
Ranganath nodded his head. “If you are feeling about it like that, let it be so.” He said.
“How the remaining matters there? How is going hypnotic therapy with Menaka? Is your wife responding to it at all?” Smaran asked him.
“I cannot understand that Niranjan. I have asked him to start treating Nirmala himself. Instead of doing that, he entrusted that matter to Menaka. Menaka is just a young girl, how can she perform such a big task?”
“Niranjan is right in some way. It is not better that your wife gets an idea that she is being treated for madness. If it is Menaka there is no problem. Your wife does not suspect anything at all.”
“Then how it would be treatment at all in the first place? We don’t know even whether the suggestions that Menaka is giving to my wife under hypnosis are working or not. We don’t know whether my wife’s subconscious is accepting them or not.”
“Suggestions which have been given in a hypnotic state like that would sure work. You need no doubt in it. How your wife is behaving now?”
“As usual. As she was before. She is still imagining that Nirupama as alive.”
“Is she is still saying that Nirupama is at her aunt’s home?”
“That is the confusing thing here. Sometimes she says that Nirupama is at her aunt’s home. Sometimes she behaves as if Nirupama is with her. I just don’t know how to take her. It is indeed typical to understand. Why such a change suddenly came into her?” Ranganath said with a worrying expression in his face.
“I suggest one thing to you Ranganath.” Smaran said. “I don’t know how it works or what type of effect it would have on her, just take her into the upstairs room where she found her daughter dead. Then we shall see what type of effect it would have on her.”
“This is not time for experiments. What we can do if my wife completely turns mad on realizing the truth?” there was irritation and fear in the face of Ranganath.
“I am not thinking it happens like that. In my opinion she knows the truth deep inside of her.”
“Niranjan also said this many a time.”
“Then it is better to make her realize the truth completely. It may have a little adverse affect in the beginning but she settles and adjusts herself slowly to the truth. We should not keep a person in falsehood like that for all his or her life time.”
“You are not a psychologist. Then how you are suggesting this type of a dangerous thing?”
“I am having a post graduation degree in psychology. I know psychology to a substantial extent.”
“I am sorry. I don’t know about that.” Ranganath regretted.
“You need not regret at all. Anyhow I am not a practicing psychologist. As you have said you may better take the suggestion of Niranjan also.”
“Niranjan also suggested that but in a different way”. Then he explained what Niranjan has said to Menaka.
Smaran breathed heavily and hissed out. “Alright. Do in the way Niranjan suggested. I am going to get the truth out for you just in one or two days.”
After that Ranganath said bye to Smaran and came back to his home.
***
“Oh, you came to my home. I am indeed feeling so happy. I just don’t know how to pass my time on this day and you have come.” On seeing Menaka in their home, Sukanya’s face lit with pleasure.
Menaka put her hands around Sukanya and kissed on her left cheek. “I too want to come to you and share some of my thoughts. Time does go so fast with you for me.”
“You must have to take your lunch here on this day. You have come here many a time but took your lunch only on one occasion.” Latha who came there just then said.
“If you insist like that” Menaka said “I sure do take my lunch here.”
Menaka settled in the chair in Sukanya’s bedroom and Sukanya made comfortable herself on the bed.
“Now tell me what those thoughts you want to share with me.” Sukanya said.
Then Menaka told Sukanya about her reading Nirupama’s dairy and the matter she read about someone praising her eyes. “Then Nirupama indeed felt happy. There is never an occasion that she had to feel bad about her eyes.”
“Not just that new friend, many other people also used to praise her eyes. It is not only her eyes that are attractive in her face. She is a dazzling beauty. But her eyes were quite attractive and appeared intelligent.” Sukanya said
“It is very much puzzling.” Menaka said. “I just could not make any guess why that she wanted to pluck her eyes out.”
“We have said that point many times in ourselves. Do we need to worry about it now also?”
“Of course no. One more important thing here is” then she explained to her about her thinking that Nirupama’s mother knew the reason why her daughter committed suicide.
“Preposterous! How her mother could have been known about that?”
Then Sukanya explained to her why she was thinking like that.
“Alright, Nirmala did not show any surprise or try to know what that led her daughter to commit suicide. But she turned mad. Mad people don’t behave logically or rationally.”
“Her madness is only partly and it is not complete. Deep inside her she knows the truth.”
“What if her madness is complete? How you and I can say that it is only a partly madness?”
“Except thinking that Nirupama is still alive she is behaving normally in all other matters. She is cooking, she is cleaning the utensils and she is keeping the house clean in a usual way. Unless, otherwise, one knows about this Nirupama episode, one cannot say that she is mad.”
Sukanya did not say anything immediately. After few seconds she said. “But I cannot think that she knows about it. Alright what we can do if she knows the truth?”
“We have to especially I and my uncle should see that she tells the truth.”
“What!” Sukanya said with surprise. “How you people are going to get the truth out from her?”
“That depends on my uncle. He makes some plan to get the truth out from Nirmala.”
“My god!” Sukanya hissed out heavily. “You detectives are dangerous things! You do anything to get the truth out.”
“We are not adamant on that in fact.” Menaka said. “But her father Ranganath is stubborn to know the truth. There is an agreement also between him and my uncle.”
“What he would do if the agreement terms are not honoured? What he would do if you people stop all this completely?”
“Hey, what you are talking? Why we should stop what we are doing? What would be the problem if the truth comes out through Nirmala?”
Sukanya got off the bed and went to the middle of the room and from there looked into the face of Menaka.
“You are feeling bad for something. Why don’t you tell me what made you feeling uneasiness like this.” observing carefully Sukanya’s face Menaka said.
Then Sukanya explained to her about her dream. “Nirupama not at all interested that truth to come out. She made that clear to me.”
Menaka laughed and said “You have seen that Nirupama in your dream. That Nirupama is nothing else but a part of your mind. Then how do you think that it is the wish of that Nirupama?”
“I am not thinking it is just my dream.” Sukanya said and she tried to say something more but then Latha came there.
“What else it is then? You heard what Niranjan said when we met him. What that Niranjan and Menaka are saying is true. You are getting obsessed with your thoughts and making small issues into big ones.”
“But mom, that is not my thinking but my dream. I just cannot agree that Nirupama in my dream is only a part of my mind. In my firm opinion Nirupama appeared to me in my dream like that and expressed herself so.” Menaka irritatingly said.
“If you are thinking like that I cannot do anything.” Latha also irritatingly said.
“You people go to Niranjan also for this?” Menaka asked Sukanya surprisingly.
“Yes, my mother took me to Niranjan. There he said what exactly you have said to me.” Sukanya said.
“What else he said?” Menaka said.
“We talked many a thing. We have talked how to control our thoughts”….Sukanya was about to say something more.
Then Menaka interrupted her and said “Just wait…..I have almost forgotten…….You have asked Niranjan what is going to happen in the near future and he said that you would come to him with your mother just in one or two days.”
“Yes. You are right.” Sukanya nodded her head.
“Then it happened just like that is it is not?” Menaka asked her surprisingly “Really he has some capacity in him to know about the future.”
“I too must agree with you.” Sukanya said.
“That Niranjan is really a wonderful guy. If you follow whatever he said, in letter and spirit, there would be no problem whatsoever to you.” Latha said again
“I am following it mom and it is working also.” Sukanya said to her mother. “But I cannot when it comes to my this particular dream.”
“What that Niranjan said to you and what you are following?” Menaka asked her with a frown.
Then Menaka explained to her what that went between her, her mother and Niranjan and what he said her to control her thoughts.
“Indeed wise! Excellent! What he said is absolutely true. We sure can control our mind by simply following that.”
Sukanya yawned heavily. “You are not a psychologist and you are not interested in psychology. Then how you are talking about mind and mind related matters like that?” she asked her.
“I am not a psychologist alright. But I never said that I am not interested in psychology. Psychology and mind are most important and interesting things to me.” Menaka said.
“If it is so, why don’t you study psychology?”
“No I am interested in it but I cannot bother that much to study it in my degree or post graduation.”
As they both were talking like that Latha went into the kitchen from there.
“What else you have found in that diary? Did only that piece in it create interest in you?”
Menaka nodded her head. “Many a time I went through that diary. But there was no clue whatsoever in that. In fact……… “ she paused for a moment and looked into the eyes of Sukanya and said “……….she might not come to know or come into touch with that dreadful thing by that time.”
“You are right. If she came know about that while she was writing the dairy, she might have mentioned it.”
“I doubt that” Menaka said “She did not write her dairy regularly. Moreover she wrote only those things which made her happy.”
“Of course.” Sukanya nodded her head and said. “I too went through that dairy many a time but could not find anything useful in it. What else you have found interesting in that room?” she asked Menaka
‘Nothing more in fact. I have searched that room thoroughly again and again in vain.” Menaka said “What we can do since that Nirupama took all the care not to let the truth out?”
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