An untellable secret
(Some secrets may better remain secrets for ever)
Kotra Siva Rama Krishna
“That Niranjan is really a very interesting personality.” Sukanya said to Menaka. Early morning at 9 of that day Menaka came to Sukanya’s home.
“Really? I did not talk with him until now and I am planning to have a session with that Niranjan.”Menaka said.
“You sure do love talking with him.” Sukanya said. She explained what happened between Niranjan and herself.
“You really felt like that in the middle of night? Why it happened so?” Menaka asked her.
“I don’t know the reason about it at all. It appeared quite real to me. To discuss about it particularly I went to him. Nirupama and I quite often visited on him many a time in the past. Everytime he was interesting and entertaining. I might have told you that he was the reason why Nirupama chose psychology in her post graduation.”
“I think you mentioned that to me.” Menaka said. “I now come to the point again. Are you really thinking that you have heard the voice of Nirupama?”
“Not now. Not after I have a discussion with Niranjan.” Menaka said. “As he has said I possibly imagined all that.” She said.
“But I too have had an experience recently.” Menaka said and explained to her what she experienced in Nirupama’s room.
“Your experience is even more livid and real than mine.” Sukanya said. “What you are feeling about it? Are you thinking really Nirupama is there?”
“My uncle said just what Niranjan has said to you.” Menaka laughed. “No I am also not thinking that it had really taken place. It was all also just my imagination. I am compelled to think like that”
“What else it could be? Nirupama died. How she would be in existence now?” Sukanya sighed heavily.
“Is there no chance that her soul is present?”
“First tell me. Do you believe in the souls or devils, etc.?” Sukanya asked her.
“No. I don’t believe in any of them like that.” Menaka replied to her.
“Then how do you expect her soul or something like that present anywhere at all?” Sukanya said.
“You are right.” Menaka nodded her head. “Oh, I almost forgot. How I have forgotten to say this important thing to tell you until now.” Then she explained to her what has been found in the library book.
Sukanya sat straight in the chair. “Interesting! Is it is so?” she asked surprisingly.
“Yes. Hundred percent it is so. It is really becoming very difficult to understand why she had left messages like that.” Menaka said.
“It was not a voluntary act of her at all.” Sukanya said. “She did that quite unintentionally, I can say.” She became thoughtful.
“You are right.” Menaka said.
“I am certainly right. By her behavior it can be understood that she did not want to tell about that main thing to anyone else. She particularly kept it from everyone else even from close and intimate people also. Then why did she leave any clue at all about that?”
“I must agree with you on this.” Menaka nodded her head.
“But why she wanted to pluck her eyes out? What really made her to wish like that?” thick frowns gathered on the forehead of Sukanya.
“I too cannot understand anything about it. So you also have no idea about why she has written like that?” Menaka asked.
“Certainly not. I am not having even a vaguest idea why she has written it like that.” Nodding her head in negation Sukanya said. “What all I can say is she has got perfect and beautiful eyes. She never needed to wear even eye glasses also.”
“One interesting thing here. I just forgot to tell you.” Then Menaka said to her what Nirmala said when she talked about Nirupama’s eyes with her
“It is even more disturbing. It does mean only one thing. That Nirmala certainly can say why Nirumpama wrote like that.” Sukanya frowned.
“I think you are right.” Menaka nodded her head.
“Can we get any information about it from Nirmala?” Sukanya knitted her brows together.
“I am not thinking like that. When I talked about it Nirmala appeared shocked! Saying like that was just automatic from her at that time. I am afraid that she may become more agitated and shocked if I talk any more about Nirupama’s eyes with her or mentioned what she has written in that book.”
“Then don’t do so.” Sukanya said.
After that both the friends talked some more time together.
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“It is very nice that you have come to our house again.” Seeing Smaran in their house Nirmala said.
“Seeing you again I am also feeling very happy.” Smaran said. “Anyhow how my niece here is? Is she troubling you people for anything? She is a naughty girl.”
“Troubling? What you are saying? She is really a very nice girl. I love her a lot.” Nirmala said.
“Then it is so that there is no problem at all.”
“No problem whatsoever” Nirmala laughed and said again “Your friend just went out. He may come home at any moment. Please make comfortable yourself. I do bring some coffee to you.”
“That is absolutely not necessary. Where is Menaka now?”
“She went to that Sukanya’s home. That girl has become a great friend to her.”
“No surprise. That Sukanya also just like this Menaka.”
Then without bothering with the protests of Smaran that he did not want any coffee like thing then, Nirmala went into the kitchen.
Suddenly Ranganath and Niranjan entered into the house.
“When did you have come?” Ranganath asked Smaran.
“Just ten minutes or so back.” Smaran replied to him. “I am feeling very happy to see you here Niranjan. In fact I want to come to you again.”
“I am also feeling happy to find you here. Is there anything particular that you wanted to see me?”
“Nothing particular in fact.” Smaran nodded his head in negation. “I just want to talk with you to know if you remember anything new to tell me.”
“Unfortunately no. I did not remember anything new so far.” Niranjan said and slumped himself beside Smaran in the sofa. “So you people are still very much trying to know about that reason.” He wearily said again.
“Yes, we are.”Smaran said. “Until Ranganath asks me to stop this, I am not going to. I must know about the truth.” Looking at Ranghanth who sat opposite to them in the chair Smaran said.
“I am not going to say a ‘no’ to it. I hundred percent want to know the truth.” Ranganath said.
“Alright.” Niranjan nodded his head. Before he was saying anything more, Nirmala came there with coffee cups on a tray. She might have known that Ranganath and Niranjan also have come, she took three coffee cups in a try and they took the coffee cups from it.
“You have almost stopped coming to our home.” Nirmala said accusingly looking at Niranjan.
“I have become busy in something else. Otherwise I would have come here.” Niranjan said.
“Niru is about to come in one or two days. She asked about you.” Nirmala said.
The other three exchanged stealthy looks on hearing that.
“I see.” Niranjan nodded his head. “What else she said?” he asked her.
“The usual.” Nirmala said. “She still wants to stay there. But I asked her strongly to come home.”
“Why? What would be the problem if she stays with her aunt for some more days?” Niranjan asked her.
“I cannot pass my time here without her.” Nirmala said. “You know how she would be in the home always.”
“I know about that.” Niranjan nodded his head. “She is a very active girl.”
There was few seconds of silence “I do go to the market to fetch the necessary groceries etc.” Looking at Ranganath, Nirmala said.
“As you wish. I have no objection whatsoever.” Ranganath said.
Then she left the house taking a bag and money purse with her.
“This is the way she is behaving. I just don’t know what to do.” Ranganath said looking at the way that Nirmala went out.
“Really very pathetic!” Smaran said.
“In one way she is fortunate. She is not suffering as I am suffering now.”
“She is suffering deep inside of her.”Niranjan said. “She knew the truth that her daughter is no more. It is all just make up. She is forcing herself to imagine that her daughter is still alive.”
“But why? Why did not she take that in the way I had taken it? Nirupama is just like the same to both of us.”
“No.” Niranjan nodded his head in negation. “She is more to her than to you. That is why her mind is quite reluctant to accept the fact.”
“Is there no chance at all that she comes to her senses and realizes that her daughter is no more?” Ranganath asked him.
“The tricky part in this and I already said to you about it.” Niranjan said. “She knows the truth. She is forcing this imagination on her.”
“Is it is comfortable to imagine like that? Can I also imagine as she is doing and be comfortable?” Ranganath asked him.
“I cannot advise you to do anything like that Ranga. That is not wise.” Niranjan said. “It is indeed very difficult to say why your wife preferred this route. But I can say again she is suffering hell deep inside her.”
“Then why don’t you make her realize or force her to agree upon the reality?” Ranganath asked him.
Niranjan did not say anything to that.
“My God! Niranjan, you are a psychologist. If you want you sure can do that. Why not you prefer to do something like that?” Ranganath asked him again.
Niranjan still did not prefer to say anything.
“You are a close relative also to her. You are saying that she is suffering hell deep inside her. Then why don’t you stop her suffering so?”
“If I do so, I introduce her to another type of hell.” Niranjan said. “She has to accept the reality which is even more hard. She is not in a position now to accept the truth. She is suffering deep inside of course, but she cannot accept the truth at once.”
“It seems there is a method to it.” Smaran said. “You are thinking on that line. Is it is not?”
“You are right.” Looking appreciatively at Smaran, Niranjan said. “Yes. There is a method and manner to make her accept the truth little by little and stop imagining like that.”
“Then why did not you start it yet?” Ranganath asked him with irritation.
“Ranga don’t feel anxiousness and iritation for each and everything.” Niranjan said to him. “As you said Nirmala is a close relative to me. I also have love and affection on her and I am also feeling a lot bad for her suffering like this. I just have seen all these days that she may herself put a stop to her imagination.” He paused for a moment and then said again. “It appears now that she would not do such type of a thing. I shall start my session as soon as possible.”
“I am glad on hearing about this.” Ranganath said.
“Upto where you people have come in your detection?” after some silence looking at Smaran, Niranjan asked.
“We have got some leads but it appears we still have to do a lot.” Then Smaran explained to him about the writing on the wall of Sukanya’s house and the writing in the library book.
“Very interesting! Why she had written it like that?” with a genuine surprise expression in his face, Niranjan asked.
“We don’t know.” Smaran said. “I just want to ask you whether you can say anything about it. She might have mentioned… you have forgotten all these days to tell….”
“I cannot bear this.” Niranjan paused for a moment mentioning that. “What that girl could not bear?”
“We are totally lost. We cannot guess anything at all.” Ranganath said.
“I too cannot think of any.” Niranjan paused for few seconds. “Her next writing “Want to pluck my eyes out” Niranjan thoughtfully said. “Why anyone does want to pluck one’s eyes out?”
“That is what we too cannot understand. It seems you too have no clue whatsoever on that also,” Smaran said.
(I hope that you enjoyed upto here. I shall publish the next chapter as soon as possible. Please don’t forget to rate and review.)
