An untellable secret
(Some secrets may better remain secrets for ever)
Kotra Siva Rama Krishna
“You are not the body. Just stop there. But don’t ask the question what you really are. This question never can be answered.”
“How it is? If I am not the body what I am then? How it is possible without any identification to me?” Menaka was persistent.
“This is a very big philosophical question and could not be answered completely by anyone till now. It is easy to prove that you are not the body. But it is not easy to show you what you really are.”
“How it is easy to prove to me I am not the body? I am thinking myself I am the body. Prove to me I am not the body.” Menaka asked again
Smaran smiled and said “You are seeing many bodies taking birth and turning themselves into fistful of ashes after death. Your body also is not different from other bodies. Whenever you say about your body, you do say my body but not I am the body. At the same time if you are the body itself why don’t you know completely about it? Why don’t you know how your heart is working, how your kidneys are working and how your whole body mechanism is working?”
“Who said I don’t know about these? I very well know how my heart is working, how my kidneys are working and how my whole body mechanism…..”
“Wait.” Smaran stopped her. “How do you come to know all about this? By reading in your science subject. Or by hearing to your science teacher. How your science teacher knows about this and how it has been put into your science books? Because of the scientists who did research for years on the bodies and came to know about. They too themselves know nothing about it. Only because of their research and prying into the other bodies they made themselves knowledgeable about this. If we are the bodies, as we often claim ourselves, why we don’t know each and everything about our body? Why body is such a foreign and alien thing to us? This simple thing is enough to prove to us that we are not the bodies.”
“You are so convincingly proved that I am not the body. Excellent! Really I am amazed. I am feeling thrilled thinking about it deeply.” There was a thrilling expression on the face of Menaka.
“Not just you anyone feels thrill if he thinks about it deeply.” Smaran said.
“I am also never thought about it in this way. You are enlightened me also besides your niece.” Ranganath smiled and said.
“Me too. Amazing explanation! There is no surprise that we do feel fear to death.” Sukanya said.
“Moreover, it is a complete blank wall after death. No one knows what happens then. We don’t know whether we do take another birth or everything stops there. Nothing has been scientifically known what happens after this life. It cannot be said what really is dying there, is it is the body or you or something else. Therefore, people feel fear to death.”
There was heavy silence then and none of them think of anything to say.
***
“You are all that much confident that Nirmala knows the truth which compelled her daughter to commit suicide?” looking at them Niranjan asked.
“Yes, we are.” With a confidence filled tone Smaran said.
Niranjan remained silent for a few moments. Then he nodded his head and said. “If it is so, this is the only way to know about it from her.”
“I want you also present there Niranjan. You know a lot about hypnotism and related things.”Ranganath said.
“Sorry Ranga. I have to go out of station on urgent work and I cannot be there.” He said and smiled. “But I am hundred percent sure that you people get what you want.”
“Sometimes I am getting a betrayal feeling. It is like cheating my wife. But …..” Ranganath paused for a moment and then said “……….I must know the truth and there is no way to us except this.”
“There is no betrayal and there is no cheating. Don’t think like that.” Niranjan said. “I do wish you people all the best.”
There was silence again and it was Niranjan again who broke it. “But I want to warn you for one thing, Ranga.”
“Tell me what it is?” Ranganath frowned.
“The secret that compelled your daughter to commit suicide which is that much unpleasant to her……….” he paused for a moment as if to accentuate what he was going to say “………is not going to be pleasant to you either. Why don’t you let it rest like that? Some secrets may better remain secrets forever.”
“I cannot rest myself in peace if I do let that secret rest like that. However may be it is to me, I must know about that.”
Niranjan breathed deeply and hissed out heavily “Then the only option I got is wish you people good luck.”
***
“Oh, dear. Shall we go into my room? Are you ready to hypnotize me again?” looking at Menaka, Nirmala asked.
It was afternoon time and and they just finished their lunch.
Menaka surprised looking at Nirmala then. There was a happy expression on her face. She was more active than ever before. Menaka did not know what really was the reason to that happiness. She remembered what Niranjan has said about her sudden happiness like this before. Just like beore, her mind might be imagining full that Nirupama was alive and it might be causing that happiness.
“Sure aunty, why not?” anyhow the situation was conducive to their experiment, Menaka felt happy.
“We go into my bedroom then.”
Then Menaka took Nirmala’s right hand and led her into her bed room and laid her gently on the bed. Nirmala closed her eyes, adjusted herself for more comfort and just like every day became ready to that hypnotic session.
“Now you are feeling so relaxed….relaxed….” Menaka started saying. There was expected change in Nirmala’s face.
“Your body and mind completely follow my suggestions…..you do feel happy in complying with my suggestions….You are relaxed ….. there are no unnecessary thoughts in your mind…..”
Nirmala’s body became still. Her breathing was even and facial expression was relaxed.
“You are not falling asleep………… You do remain awake……………… But you are under deep hypnosis………… You do follow only my suggestions……………”
There was no change in Nirmala. Menaka felt relieved. Menaka already made her accustomed to be awaken under hypnosis to give the necessary suggestions to start the treatment Niranjan suggested.
“Now you are going to hear another voice which you do like even more……… You do answer his questions……… you do follow his suggestions………….. you do hear that voice you and it makes you even more happy and relaxed………….you answer all his questions…..”
Nirmala appeared more relaxed than ever before. Her breathing was even and there was no rapid eye movement either.
Observing Nirmala like that, Menaka took out her cell and gave a missed call to Smaran’s number. Smaran, Ranganath and Sukanya were just waiting outside. Within seconds after Menaka gave that missed call, those three filled that room. All the necessary instructions have been given to the other people by Smaran outside itself. No one should make any noise. No disturbance should be there.
Smaran looked into the eyes of Menaka and Menaka nodded her head with satisfaction. Smaran went near to Nirmala and looked into her face.
“I am the other voice you do hear now….You like my voice also….You comply with my suggestions…..You obey my orders……”
There was no change in Nirmala. Her face was with complete relaxedness. Her breathing was even as before.
“Now you are going to take a deep breath…..you are going to fill your lungs with the outside fresh air….”
As soon as Smaran finished the suggestion Nirmala breathed deeply and hissed out heavily.
“You are going to answer my questions…..You like answering my questions…..”
Ranganath and Sukanya were watching whatever happening with bated breath. They never had seen hypnotizing before. It was all like magic to them.
“Do you know me? Ever you have seen me before?”
There was no response from Nirmala. She remained as she was.
“You like answering my questions. Tell me who I am?”
Ranganath and Sukanya were wondering whether Nirmala would answer that question or not. They almost confirmed that Nirmala was not going to answer that question but then her lips started twisting and sound came out of her mouth.
“Smaran…..You are Smaran….”
Everyone there felt happy and excited!
“Good… You like Menaka ………Don’t you?” after a little pause Smaran asked her again.
There was some silence. But before Smaran prompting her again she answered. “Yes, I like her a lot. She is just like my daughter to me.”
Smaran looked into the faces of Ranganath, Sukanya and Menaka. Their faces were with excitement and expectation.
“You love your husband a lot. You like him. Is it is not so?”
“I like my husband a lot. I love him a lot. It is true.” This time the answer came immediately.
“What about your daughter Nirupama? She is the dearest to you, is not she?”
“Yes, you are right. Nirupama is the dearest to me and to my husband also.”
Smaran paused for a moment. The remaining three understood that Smaran was going to ask a crucial question.
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