Split Personality
A romantic, paranormal and psychological thriller
Kotra Siva Rama Krishna
“Exactly that!” Charita exclaimed. “You are absolutely right doctor. However much I do want I cannot feed my child my breasts’ milk feeling like that. I have been advised by the doctor and by my parents also that mother’s milk is so much important to the child. But I just cannot do that feeling so.” There was sorrow in her voice and her face was filled with an uneasy expression.
“Some mothers do feel like that and it is impossible to get rid of the feeling. Not just while feeding when the parent and child are opposite sex it is quite natural to have sexual feeling just because feelings don’t require your permission to enter into you. As it is something happening to you without your consent, don’t bother about it. You already did a big mistake by not allowing your child feed on your breast milk and at least start it from now on. As your parents and that doctor said, mother’s milk is very much important to babies until they get six months or so of age.”
“It is not so that I have not been feeding my son my milk. But as I am feeling quite awkward with sexual arousal in me, I am giving him bottle milk quite often ...........”
“When mother’s milk is available giving other milk is not advisable at all as it may lead to other types of problems also. If you are having sexual arousal and feeling while your son is having your milk, its alright. Don’t try to get rid of that and just let your baby suck in and gradually you stop feeling like that.” Rose advised to her.
“Is there no way at all that you can stop me from feeling like that? Cannot you program me under hypnosis not to feel like that while feeding my baby through my breasts?” with a hopeful expression in her face Charita asked her.
“You first stop feeling that is wrong. Irrespective of the relationship sexual attraction between the opposite sexes is always possible. It mostly related to the body and we cannot control our bodily instincts and it is better let them take place in its natural way. In future also you may feel just like that towards your son in some other ways also if you take your feeling like that in a negative way. Trying to get rid of your feeling in anyway even through hypnotism may make it more strong.”
“Why, why only I am feeling in this way?” the troubling expression in Charita’s face was intensified even more.
“Breasts are the main attraction to the male while doing sex and sometimes they suck on them also. Not all but some mothers do remember that while their children are sucking on their breasts and it leads to sexual feeling and arousal in them. If they do take it casual, gradually that feeling and arousal would not happen. Moreover.........” Rose paused for a second before saying again. “.............even that sexual feeling persists with your baby, just don’t worry about it but continue your feeding to your baby as long as it required. What all you need to do is give your milk to your baby whenever required and just don’t use that bottle anymore.”
Charita did not say anymore but reclined in the chair and closed her eyes.
“Just be brave and do in the way I asked. That is the best solution to your problem.”
Charita opened her eyes and opened her mouth to say something but suddenly then the baby started weeping again. She opened the handbag and tried to extract the bottle from it again.
“Stop that. Give your milk. Feed your baby through your breast.” Rose said with a voice like a command.
“But doctor.....” Charita tried to say something.
“Just do in the way I asked.” With the same commanding voice Rose said.
Then Charita unhooked her blouse and she wore a bra also inside. She indeed has to put an effort to free her right breast from the bra and put the tit of it in the mouth of the baby. As soon as it has been put in its mouth, the baby started sucking on it vigorously. After five minutes or so, Charita freed her left breast from the bra and baby started sucking on it also vigorously as soon as the tit of it was put into its mouth. After one minute or so of sucking on it, the baby fell into sleep again.
“Doctor I must say.” With a smile on her lips Charita said. “I am feeling happy that I could feed my baby through my breasts and I am confident that I can do that in future also. Of course the sexual feeling has been just so while my baby is sucking on me.”
“Don’t bother about it at all and I hope you do remember my advice.” Rose reclined in her chair.
“I hundred percent remember it and I just do in the way you advised.” Then she adjusted her dressing and said again. “I took most of your time but happy you gave me the solution. I go now.”
“And you can meet me for any type of problem at any time.” Rose said with a smile.
Then Charita went away from that room.
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“I am so happy that you came to our home again. But I don’t like John did not come with you both.”
In the evening of that day when Rose reached her home, Jasmine and her one year or so aged son Rohan were present. Rose was expecting John, husband of Jasmine also with them and indeed felt happy seeing them in her house. Even from the moment of her marriage with Williams itself, Jasmine and Rose were very good friends. They both supported each other on many occasions.
“He also so much wished to come but you know his business obligations. He has to go suddenly and he promised me to come here straight once his business work is over.” Jasmine said.
“That would be indeed nice!” Rose laughed. “John is a good friend not only to Williams but to me also. He is such an amicable and agreeable person.....”
“I must agree. John is indeed good! In fact his good nature and good character made me fell in love with him. But you know one thing?” Jasmine paused. “John said the same thing about you also. In fact he impressed very much about you. In his opinion just because of you that my brother could become his usual self again and in fact that is my opinion also.”
“Both your brother and you have strong will power. That is what made you go against the odds and won over the circumstances.”
In fact Jasmine also was as much affected as Williams when she came to know about the ghastly truth about her mother. If it was not for John and his profound love and affection on her, Jasmine could never have become her usual self.
“It is still very much disgusting and upsetting to me to think.” Suddenly Jasmine’s face was with full of disgust.
“I am sorry. I should not have said it like that.” With a regretful expression in her face Rose said. “It seems that I made you remember something troubling which you have forgotten.”
“I never have forgotten about that and I never can.” Jasmine took the right hand of Rose into her both hands and squeezed it gently. “And I just cannot bear that you feel sorry for anything.”
Quite automatically Rose remembered what Williams have said. Jasmine was the daughter of Dibbu and if one observed her minutely it could be known. Till then Rose could see only the beauty of her mother Margaret in Jasmine. But remembering what Williams have said Rose could see some resemblance between Jasmine and that Dibbu. Then could it be true that Jasmine was the daughter of that Dibbu and a bastard?
“What you are thinking Rose you suddenly fell into thinking like that?” breaking that silence Jasmine said.
Rose startled on hearing that and immediately she did not know what to say. Anyhow saving her from that predicament Liza entered into that room.
“It is very nice that you came! Indeed after a very long time I am seeing you.” Liza said.
Jasmine got off from the chair, went near to her and kissed on her right cheek before putting her right hand around her shoulders. “I am feeling so happy to see you. In fact after Williams’ marriage we both did not meet at all. But I still can remember your enjoyable presence then. As Rose quite often says that you are indeed an impressive character.”
“Not so, not so I must say.” Liza relieved from her hold, went near to the bed and slumped on the edge of it beside her sister Rose. “I am just an ordinary character but you both are very impressive women.”
“Alright, alright. Enough praise!” Rose laughed. “If you too also feeling hungry, we go and start our supper.”
“It is not my supper time yet. Cannot we talk some more time?” Jasmine asked.
“I have no objection if waiting some more time for supper does not bother my sister.”
“Both your husband and my husband also are out with our children. It is better that we do wait until they come.” Liza said.
“Alright then” after saying so Rose looked into the face of Jasmine again. “By way of your saying, I understood you want to talk something particular with me. Whatever it is; just express yourself freely.”
“If it is something confidential and you don’t want me here now, I go away from here and come after sometime.” Liza said.
“Of course, it is sort of confidential but I have no objection by your staying with us. In fact I want you also to be with me. You have become a good friend to me by that simple association at that time.” Looking into Liza’s face, Jasmine said.
“Alright then. Pour your heart and let us both know whatever you want to say.” Rose said.
“How is my brother now? Is everything alright with him?”
Frowns gathered on the forehead of Rose and before the other two of them said anything she said. “I cannot say everything is alright with him. It is just six months that he came out of his shock and you know how worst he damaged.”
“It is just because of the thing he had seen is like that.” Jasmine said “Even I have not seen it with my own eyes, whenever I think about it I do feel I may become mad. He has seen it with his own eyes and what is the surprise his psyche damaged to such extent?”
“Of course, yes.” Rose nodded her head with a smile. “But the good news is he is recovering and becoming his complete usual self! Slowly and slowly he is getting back his past memories also. Very soon he would be a perfect person.”
“Is he is getting all his past memories back?” suddenly there was uneasiness in the face of Jasmine which Rose could not understand.
“Yes, in fact that is what has become little problematic also. Some of his past memories are not good and he is getting disturbed by them.”
“My god! What should we do then? Would he become mad like that again?” the expression in Jasmine’s face turned into fear.
Rose got off from the bed, went back to the chair of Jasmine and put her both hands around her neck. “Don’t forget that your brother is now in the hands of a competent and skilful psychiatrist. It is my promise to you that I shall see that there would be no problem to him at all and become his usual self as soon as possible.”
Jasmine slowly got off from the chair she sat, put her both hands around Rose’s neck and looked into the eyes of her. “I don’t need your promise for that. I know it shall be so. He will be safe and alright all the time in your hands. But......” she paused for a second before saying again “........he is the very dearest to me and I always feel anxious about him. So I asked.”
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