At about 6 in the evening, after uploading the files, I heard my cellphone ringing. It was Shahi(Amaan). I answered the call.
He said, "Why is your boss making you work for so long? I have been waiting for a long time."
"What am I to do? My boss always makes me work. Such a grumpy head."
"Oye, enough yaar. But he is indeed a nice fellow."
I laughed at him.
He asked, "So when are you planning to come down?"
"I will be there in a minute."
Saying this, I entered the lift and went downstairs. I knew making Shahi wait was a bad idea.
I went outside to see his car parked on the side. He was on the driver seat. "Where is Kaka?", I asked him.
"I sent him away for a week. It's been a long week for him too. Let him take a rest yaar."
"I have no issue. I was just wondering where he was. But I did tell you that I would drive."
"Of course madam. Here you go."
We swapped our places. I drove to the nearby cafe and bought tea and snacks for us. I had plans already set. I stopped the car in infront of the gaming zone. He looked at me with a puzzled face.
"Why are we here? ", he asked me.
"Why do people generally come here?"
"Are you serious, Zarah? We are all grown up. Sorry, not we but me."
He chuckled at me.
I glared at him. "I am serious. Are you coming or not?"
He had no other choice but to agree.
"Don't you think I am afraid of you glaring at me?" to which I replied with a smile - "Then why did you think you agreed with me?"
He smiled in response.
It was a very enjoyable day. We had played bowling, arcade games and so more. It was indeed after so long I had seen him this happy. We laughed so much that it hurt, we were two little children so lost in the game and I was lost in his smile. The cute dimple always managed to mesmerize me. He caught me staring at him, and smiled
"Am I too hard to resist?", he asked.
"You wish" I replied.
After a long while, we decided to have dinner. He drove to his suggested dhaba and we had a great dinner. We drove back home.
I could see hsi eyes shimmering, I wish I could see this everyday, every morning , every night.
With each time he smiles, I am falling again and again.
After a shower he knocked on my door, I let him in. He sat on the nearby chair while I sat in the cushion
He asked, "That was a long day, thanks to you. I feel a whole lot lighter than earlier. How can you make me this happier?"
I smiled at him. "That's what I am. I am special."
To which he giggled.
Then he asked suddenly, "Have you ever hated me?"
I didn't know what to respond. The person whom I love the most in the world wants to know if I hated him. Yes I hated when he ignored me, I hated when he couldn't understand how badly I needed him.
I hated when I wishes he would be there for me, but he wasn't.
I ignored all my thoughts and replied, " How could I?"
He looked at me in my eyes and then asked, "Then, do you love me?"
I stood there frozen, not knowing what to say. Is it for real?
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I know it's been so long. I don't know if anyone will ever start reading again, but this is to me, this is to my interests that I have left behind throughout my journey of life. This is to me loving myself, doing what made me happy once.
This is to everyone like me, who wants to live their life a bit easily and not just existing.
I can't promise to post regularly but I will try to.
