My grandfather who was staying in my grandmother's ancestral home with family was a gandhian.In the Kayamkulam district of Kerala, there is a renowned Hindu temple known as chettikulangara devi temple.Whenever festival occurred in the temple gunpowder was used for lightening.During those days a Christian man was engaged by the temple authorities for working with the gunpowder blast.He was the only person who knew this technique.As he told that if the Christians knew this they would create problem.So my grandfather changed his name to Chellappan Pillai, who was a Latin Catholic and remained a Christian his whole life.He was married and had many children.Elders went for job in other districts.Later Chellappan joined Marxist party and knew many film related people.His younger children are Vinod,Arun and a daughter.Vinod studied in the Kayamkulam district and Trivandrum district.Arun and his sister settled down in Trivandrum.Vinod married a congress politician's sister who is a Nair.The daughter had affair with his childhood boyfriend who was also Nair.Arun is working in government service.Chellappan had taught his daughter that Nairs are bad so they had to struggle a lot.When my parents married and worked in Trivandrum district,they stayed near MP Pillai and his wife Prof.Saraswathy's house.But it was my father's relatives who had good contacts with Chellappan's family members as his daughter knew my cousin sister's in Trivandrum right from childhood.My uncles had a misunderstanding that it was their father who was behind this.If my mother's father was alive he will be 125 years old.As my father liked MP Pillai very much, when my parents applied for transfer to Trivandrum, he bought a house near MP Pillai's house.It was according to MP Pillai' s suggestion that my father bought the house which existed in the land where my family lives now.The previous house was a three bedroomed tiled house and a grilled balcony was constructed in front of the house.From 4 th standard onwards a tuition master used to come to teach me tuition for Maths as I was an average student.Due to his tuition I used to score 6.5/12 marks for tests,that is all I could remember.So I told my parents that he is a good teacher,as a compliment.When I joined 6 th standard I was 10- 11 years of age.There was sudden change in his attitude.He used to tell my parents that his relatives daughter Usha is a good looking singer,so and so are her parents.Aravindakshan and Chellappan Pillai are his relatives.Those days my brother was also having tuition for all subjects at home.Ravi sir used to teach him Maths.My brother was in 10 th standard.So when my tuition masters time was changed so that my brother will get enough coaching to score good marks for the final exam.My parents wanted my brother to join for science group after 10 th standard.My tuition master had a government job as Secretariat Assistant and seemed busy when he came.He would drink the whole cup of tea my mother or maidservant or I had served him.Then he would start harassing me, when cried 'Amma' aloud he would stop.He would pull up my frock and put his hands inside my undergarments which he made loose by his hands.I would push him aside.It was an open balcony with grill so any neighbours could see this, if keen. Realising my resentment he started to pinch me and my head on the wall several times during the one hour class.Most often I fainted and he would allow me get inside my house,where my parents were watching television.I would complain to my mother and maid servant that he pushed my head to the wall,puts his hands into my frock so he is bad.My mother told me that it was I who told father that this tuition master is good,he may be punishing because now I may be lazy.I told my mother that he is a bad person, he is lying to my parents.But they thought that I am the lier.My brother and my father were laughing.Not just them, my neighbours,Ruby,Arun,Moni MP all were mocking at me when I told them my problem.They too thought I was lying that that person is bad.Ruby told that he never did anything wrong on her but he used to talk vulgar things and she used to give proper reply to him.By July, the school authorities had announced that the National Games for the year will be conducted in Kerala and the inauguration ceremony will at Chandrashekharan Nair stadium.For the inauguration ceremony all students upto 7 th standard were asked to join compulsorily for the ' bharatheeyam' practice in the police stadium early morning 7 o' clock.Later they changed the schedule to Saturdays and Sundays.This was the time when the tuition master would be waiting outside my house.He would come in his bycycle and would ring his cycle bell several times and my father will meet him.I was told that Ion hearing that I had joined for a sports training programme,he was shocked and my parents did not want to give tuition fees because no serious tuition classes happened for several months except a few chances.My brother and father also requested my mother to give him tuition fee but my mother was not ready to give.Then one day it was off for bharatheeyam' training and I was in the house.He came and waited outside.I screamed and told my mother to stop the tuition or else I would commit suicide.Did they want me to be a lady seen in the television film that Sunday?So, my father gave him his fees from his salary.Since I screamed aloud and my neighbours heard me crying,my father felt ashamed of my mischief and stopped the tuition.Later,when again I screamed against my mother and brother, he recorded it in a tape recoder and went to Moni.M.Ps house.They heard it in full volume and my brother was not seen in the house.So I ran to MP Pillai's house and my brother asked me Manju why did you come here now? As if I should be seen no where.Then Arun was smiling at me holding the audio cassette.Since I could not get hold of the cassette,I immediately ran to my house to complain to my mother.But my mother told me that she had bought new pants for my brother,I wanted to open the packet,but she did not give me.So I cried being jealous of him.Neighbours were asking what the issue was?So my brother secretly recorded it and took the cassette and went to Arun.M.Ps house.She told that she too knew my rooted jealousy.But my brother could not prove it.My father and brother were fed up with me.So they played at my back.Then I asked my mother about my brothers mischives,she replied that as I am a young girl I should keep aloof from him.He has no right to protect me as one day I will be going to another family and he will stay with my parents.He could not concentrate on his studies as I used to scream a lot and crack bad lies to all his friends and Ruby was given bad advices by me.My brother felt ashamed of me all the three in my family taught me a good lesson.Thats is all.I should protect myself in future also.As if, it is a warning that anytime it could happen to anyone.God has taught me a lesson.It is an old story, about days before I was born.